My dear child, my mother is very depressed now, for you and for her. Ever since you got up in the morning, you have been playing the coquette and lying in bed for a long time. Mom is looking for clothes, you have to lie in the quilt and wear them; Wear socks, you shout it's cold. I said, what will you do when mom goes to work? You instantly shed tears and said, mom, I love you and stay with Chuchu. Mom doesn't like your tears, and she doesn't like your crying. She felt very weak. Although you are only three and a half years old, my mother thinks you are a big boy and can understand almost everything, so my mother asks you and talks to you with the standards of a big boy. But obviously, my mother ignored that you are just a little baby, a little darling who loves to spoil and likes the company of her parents.

My mother is very tired and has been looking for a job interview recently. My mother also went to the interview yesterday afternoon, obviously for nothing. I can only say that the routine of society is too deep, and the eagerness for success is obviously being used. Taking a long bus ride is just a joke. Seeing that it's getting late, I hurried back to the kindergarten to pick you up. After waiting for a long time, the bus was crowded with people, but it was a little late. When you saw your mother coming, you jumped on her with joy. Mom's troubles vanished in an instant.

This time should be the time to listen to English at ordinary times, but today my mother is really not in the mood. You cried and coughed again in the morning. Mom knows that you pushed the quilt again last night, because you were too tired and slept too hard. You suddenly wake up at night, find that you have nothing covered, and immediately put your arm around you. I'm angry that I didn't wake up earlier and tuck you in. You turn it over, turn it over several times, and stuff it several times. I always get sick and cough when I go to kindergarten. Mother patiently makes you Chuanbei rock candy Sydney every day. Almost ready, because my second aunt died and took you back to your hometown, and your condition worsened. Mom is very anxious, on the one hand, she can't let you go, on the other hand, she has to find a job. How difficult it is for a stay-at-home mother to find a job, not to mention no one to take care of you and pick you up after school. Thinking of this, my mother is particularly entangled and particularly sad. Mom wants to stay with you, but the economic situation at home is really worrying; Mom is going to work, but she can't worry about you.

? It says, mom's tears are going to fall. You refuse to brush your teeth in the morning, so let your mother help you. My mother is willing to do it for you. I washed your face, scented your face and changed your shoes. It's already 8 o'clock. 15 The kindergarten begins to eat at eight o'clock, so mom should hurry up. I forgot to tie my hair, so I quickly took a hair rope and left, tying it while walking. Look, it's too late to tie your hair. I ignored you and dragged you to wait for the elevator. The result is that you will cry and make noise when waiting for the elevator, and you will never stop until you reach your goal. Mom lit the fire and I'll explain it to you. It's too late, too late. However, your adamant loud voice, hugging your leg, suddenly I want to hit you.

Get into the elevator and go downstairs, as usual. I held back my anger and told myself not to get angry. However, the noise all the way, passers-by look askance, everyone is concerned. I turned a blind eye, took your little hand and walked straight to school. Parents I met all the way ask you what's wrong? I smiled awkwardly. Usually I may coax you very well and gently, but today my mother is very tired and not in the mood to face you with so many tricks. You have to hug before you walk a few steps. Of course, I don't care. But you are getting worse and worse, crying louder and louder, as if the sky can hear your crying through the sky. At least you're smarter, and your crying is getting smaller and smaller. I thought I could relax. As a result, I arrived at the entrance of the kindergarten community and began to sob again. Suddenly, your mother's anger grew like weeds, and she slapped you twice. Yes, mom hasn't hit you for a long time, and she plans not to hit you in the future. But you are really, really disobedient today. You burst into tears, tore your heart out, and kept coughing, as if to cough up your lungs. My heart aches, I feel helpless, and I feel guilty. I don't know why, today you are struggling, struggling to the end. I cried all the way, but I was bored. I really want to send you on your way. This road is too sad and helpless. It's almost kindergarten. I stopped to wipe your tears. You were sobbing, but suddenly you began to cry again. Do you feel wronged? Do you think your mother is finally paying attention to you?

You were still sobbing when your aunt examined your mouth. I walked you to the classroom, but you were already crying. You're usually not that dependent. Is it because your mother said she was going to work, and you were afraid you wouldn't see her again? Son, mom really has to go to work. It's your aunt who will pick you up after school, not your mother! Maybe you won't get used to it at first, but you will get used to it after a while.

Life never lets mom make a choice. After marriage, at the urging of your grandparents, I soon had you. At that time, we didn't know what small life meant. I thought we would be taken care of by grandparents like most families. Ever since I gave birth to you, I have known that thinking is too simple and naive. Your grandmother can't take care of you at all. I didn't know everything was too simple until I was hospitalized by caesarean section. And when you come into this world, I will raise you with my teeth. So, confinement, your father and I take care of you day and night. In the second month, grandma only helped you cook and wash diapers, that's all, and it couldn't be done well. Too much oil and vegetables are often fried. So, after the full moon, let her go home, after all, grandma has her own things. I've always raised you. After the full moon, I held you for the exam alone, watching other people's grandparents and grandparents' families around, while I only held you in line, which made me very sad. Before I was one year old, I often took you back to my grandmother's house. Because dad is very busy at work, I will take you to grandma's house, let mom eat and feed you with milk. Carrying a big bag several times almost missed the train, and my back was soaked with sweat. At that time, my mother complained because someone else had a car to drive back. What about us? It's nothing. You hit us. My mother felt bitter at that time, but she was glad to have you.

? When you were two months old, grandma came to see you. She came from a relative's house and had an argument with your grandmother playing mahjong. When I came over, it was very comforting to say. Later, I have to say it several times a day. My mother was busy taking care of you, and I didn't think so much. As a result, a few days later, at lunch, your grandmother slapped her mother severely. She looked in a trance, and her mother cried and was very wronged. Your grandmother has been pulling her mother's hair since the fight. She has great strength. Fortunately, my aunt has been holding my grandmother. Mom is worried that she will go to the bedroom to hurt you. She's scared. I've been calling your father to come back quickly, but your grandmother thinks I'm calling her to hurt her and pull her hair tighter. Later, grandma was admitted to the hospital. Baby, I don't know how to get through those days. I've thought about divorce several times. I always worry about what you will do without me in your future. If you have me in your future, but you leave your father, will you still have regrets?

So I walked all the way, crying all the way, wandering all the way. Postpartum depression slowly surged up, including scenes where no one took care of me in the hospital, which often made me cry alone. Your grandmother's harm to me is often accompanied by shadows. Tears often wet the pillow towel, but I can't find a way out. Wandering all the way, lost all the way. During the period, I wanted to go to work many times, and I had to pay for the house without financial resources. Your father's meager salary is beyond his means, but who will take care of you? I once asked myself, did I make the wrong choice? Shouldn't I bring you into this world to suffer when there is no economic condition? Shouldn't I choose your father who has nothing? No one told me the answer and there was no turning back. Later, my mother learned that you came to this world as a surprise for my parents, because you brought more laughter to my parents than those sour tears along the way. Your father is a good father because he is diligent, loves you and takes care of you.

You can sit in six months, and your mother can push you away without hugging you. In seven and a half months, you called your mother for the first time; 10 month, you naughty bit mother's two nipples, suppurated, weaned, separated from you for 5 days; 1 1 month, you learn to walk and take the stairs, and your mother's waist is almost broken; 1 year 1 month, you can walk steadily; One year and two months, you were so active and running around, you fell down and your mouth was broken, and your blood was bleeding. My mother was worried that you would leave a scar ... When you were two and a half years old, you were admitted to the hospital for the first time after your trachea was born because of eating peanuts, and your mother almost lost you and almost collapsed. When you were 3 years old, your mother sent you to kindergarten. In recent years, you have been with me day and night, son, you can't live without your mother; Actually, mom can't live without you. Just like when weaning, it is not only children who are unwilling to wean, but also mothers.

? People always say it's good to have a big child. That's just comforting nonsense. From the birth of a child, it is destined to be the responsibility and concern of parents, and will never stop because of the growth of the child. Baby, you have always been mom's troublemaker and follower, and mom is used to it. Sweeping the floor and mopping the floor every day, washing clothes and cooking, you are everywhere. So mom will always be with you, as long as you call. Mom can cook while holding you; Mom can help you carry urine when you go to the toilet; When mom sweeps the floor, there is always your little figure to help; When mom changed the sheets and quilt cover, you jumped on the bed to make things worse. Mom doesn't feel tired. Even if your father doesn't earn much money every month, he can save some money every month. Mom doesn't want to be rich, and she doesn't compare with others. She just wants to buy you something you like. You're like an adult. Every time you say you want to buy you new clothes, you will say, I do! Every time mom scares you not to listen, you don't buy new toys. You are not annoyed at all, saying, I have toys! Don't buy. Your clothes have been worn for several years, and you don't care about the old clothes given by others. Later, because of kindergarten Easter, my mother bought a princess dress. You are so happy! Arguing about whether to wear it or not. Unfortunately, the weather is getting colder and colder, so I have no chance to wear it. You are the little princess of mom and dad, and you may have a lot of material debts, but mom and dad have been accompanying you with love. You are so happy!

Originally, you went to kindergarten, and your mother was glad to be liberated. I have already applied for driving school to prepare for driving test. Even my mother has been looking forward to a better day in the future: sending you to school every day, coming back to do aerobics and studying in driving school. Occasionally invite friends to go shopping, take you out to play, go out to eat, and let others serve you. Mom, I haven't been on the street for years, and I haven't gone out to play for a long time. You are too young to go anywhere and you refuse to go. Going out to play is a nightmare.

However, God has no mercy on our family. After grandma was hospitalized for mental disorder for three years, from 2065438 to August 25, 2006, your grandfather investigated and dealt with stage 4 lung adenocarcinoma. When I learned the news, I was not surprised, just sad. I cried several times at night, and I was sad to think that you might not get grandpa's love in the future. Mom doesn't have the love of grandparents, so I especially hope you can get love. Grandpa smoked and drank and stayed up late for many years, and repeatedly advised him not to listen. As a last resort, I had to be hospitalized. I was hospitalized twice and spent nearly hundreds of thousands. After radiotherapy and chemotherapy, people become listless and haggard. After purchasing targeted drugs in India through various channels, my mother's condition is still stable, but she has to take painkillers every day to make a living.

I don't have any savings. Hard-earned money was originally reserved for you to go to school. They all went to the hospital. Not only that, they also borrowed a lot of money. Children, filial, do not leave regrets for the elderly, but also have a clear conscience. Is this the end? Seeing this, do you already feel miserable? No, no,no. If it were that simple, then God would be very kind to us.

Mom and dad sigh every day, but you are still carefree. Mother finally realized that the world is cold now. As soon as those relatives heard that they wanted to borrow money, they all avoided it, as if they had met the plague. Why borrow money, or a lot of money? Inevitable nightmare, inevitable nightmare. The sad heart is still melancholy, and the problems of life are in front of us. When grandpa was in hospital, someone was collecting debts. 10 month, urging 20,000 yuan, ok, let's pay it back. It's only natural to pay back debts, what's more, people are afraid that you won't get them if you die. Do you think this is the end? Don't! 165438+ 10, your grandfather went back to ask your father for money and said he would pay off his debts. Oh, my God, where is the money? Our days are almost over. I have no choice but to lend it to him. In February 65438, your grandfather asked for six sums of money in succession, and all of them had to pay off their debts. Mom and dad wanted to see the debt contract, but he kept putting it off. Finally one day, things got out of hand. We just saw the truth.

Mother prepared for the worst and sold the house. Mom also thought of many ways to raise money, such as selling the jewelry she bought for her wedding. Mom and dad don't know why your grandfather has such a large debt, and even he doesn't know where the money is. 300,000 yuan, 6 debt contracts, Ping An Pratt & Whitney, Mavericks, Yingu Pratt & Whitney, Quaker, Nuoyuan and CreditEase Pratt & Whitney are all on the list. Greedy people, according to your grandfather's qualifications, can't get a loan at all. According to your fingerprints, these contracts are in front of your eyes. Do you think you are sleepwalking if it is not a constantly beating number? As an old man, he can't understand the contract at all, and he can't read the rules and regulations of the contract. It's just weird. I've already paid back a lot. Why so many? If the salesman of Ping An Pratt & Whitney told him that he had borrowed 70,000 yuan and finally had to pay back 1.2 million yuan, he would definitely not borrow it. How do salesmen brag and cajole? Just like the swindler who sells health products, he coaxed the old man to take out the coffin book. They turned and parted, eating people and not spitting bones. Finally, the old man knew that the money was gone and lay on the beach and ended his life.

? Mom and dad, as well as uncles and aunts, all tried to pay this debt together, and the world was once cold and warm. Otherwise, this debt collection phone is like a sharp knife on your head, urging your grandfather's life all the time. We hope he can live, even if he lives one more day. Now this debt is also on my parents' heads, so my parents are under great pressure. Mom also hopes to take good care of you and pick you up at the first time every day. But mom has to go to work. Future, son, please come on!

At that time, I was utterly confused and looked back as if it were yesterday. I finished it in tears. It was a mess. Please forgive me too. Looking at the child with tears, she was taken away by the teacher. She waved to me, and my mother wanted to say, go, go home with her mother! But you can't. Son, mom loves you forever. Please forgive mom for not being with you forever. Just like when you go to kindergarten, your mother has to let go of your hand; Just like mom is going to work, you have to let go of her hand. Let's cheer together, work together and get closer to happiness!