I always hear adults often say how carefree childhood is and how to make them miss it but can't go back.
However, I don't think so about how hard their society and life are. Unprecedented curiosity turned into an accelerant of time, and I began to feel that everything was necessary in this already ordinary graduation season.
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Last semester of my senior year, I worked as a member consultant in a gym in my school-selling fitness cards. There are two reasons to go in the first place. One is that I like fitness at ordinary times, and I can meet many friends who can learn. The other is that I can work hard to earn more money, and I can prepare to travel abroad with my friends.
When I first went, I seemed to have inexhaustible energy and enthusiasm. Walk into the workplace on time every day, distribute leaflets according to the instructions of the leaders, communicate with customers and learn how to make orders.
But after such a period of time, the effect is far less than expected, and the enthusiastic work becomes monotonous.
Only a little bit unwilling to let me continue to wander among them. After a long time, the performance is not up to standard, and there will always be a supervisor to talk.
The supervisor is also a student, one year younger than me, but my social experience and way of doing things are beyond my reach.
I wandered between trying and giving up that day and had a little communication with him. Tell his helplessness and ignorance, and ask what makes him work so hard.
He said solemnly, "Because I just want to make money, I want my mother to live a good life", and "If others send 300 leaflets, I will send 500. When others complain that they are suffering and they are tired, I try my best to use all the resources that can be publicized to publicize them. I have this belief in my heart, not only to achieve the best performance, but also to get the most satisfactory return in my heart ... ".
In the conversation that day, although his expression was firm and sincere and not sensible enough, my heart did not ripple. Later, I learned something. Just when he started working, something happened at home and he went home for a while. I don't know the specific situation, but I can imagine the pain and responsibility it brought him.
Maybe he was as wayward and evasive as I was, but the sudden burden changed everything.
In fact, sometimes, we see some people who are the same age and have the same status, but have different ideas, are versatile and unfamiliar. In fact, perhaps, he just experienced some hardships earlier than us, and took on everything that a child was caught off guard earlier.
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In my life, there are two boys accompanying my youth.
One of the characters, Ting, has divorced parents and lives in grandma's house. Which is my neighbor. As far as I remember, my aunt didn't come back often, because she had to earn money for her own study all the year round. She has lived in her grandmother's house since she was a child and grew up with me.
Ting's biggest feature is that she loves to laugh. She has a big mouth, and this trademark smile always takes up half of her face. Two dimples seem to have been dug out. Every time I see her showing big white teeth, I want to send three words, silly and sweet.
I remember my aunt bought a new house when I was a teenager. At that time, our school was close to there, so Ating would go home for the weekend. But my aunt's job needs often changed outside the door, and then she went abroad directly. So ting is the only one living at home.
When we spoiled in front of our parents to buy snacks, she tried to cook at home by herself. She was on her way to pay the water and electricity bill when we had rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea. We met a guest who was shy to say hello when she came home, and she arranged the arrival of relatives and friends at home alone. ....
In a word, everything seems to be solved by her.
So old, so independent, so mature, and with such a sweet smile, she has been someone else's child in my parents' mouth since childhood. Of course, it once became my role model. After a year, more people said that I was more like a child. So since I was a child, I have always understood things like a younger brother and followed my older brother for many years.
It could have been a bitter drama, but I pulled it out abruptly and she felt something.
The day I really met her was a weekend, and I went to her house to accompany her that night. That night, we talked for a long time, from childhood to the future, talking about my inner envy and hatred for her.
I said, "I really envy you for being so independent and doing everything in order." I was bored to death by my mother's nagging class all day. "
The air seemed to pause for a few seconds and she giggled.
"I envy you. So many people in the family care about you and help you. In fact, you don't have to do these things at all. It would be great if you had your big sister and aunt to help you. As for me, I just want to take some responsibility for myself early. "
What's delicious? Not good at all. I've heard enough of those sermons? I answered angrily. Although there were waves in my heart, I didn't understand what she was saying at that time.
Now when I step into the society slowly and face some things alone, I gradually realize it. A person has to bear something.
She envies the warmth and harmony of my family, accompanied by my parents and cared for by my sister. I envy her freedom, her independence, themselves, and their own distress. No one can escape the years of butcher's knife, and she will always be a child cared for by her family. Maybe she needs to bear it earlier, maybe I will be late, that's all.
Another little hairdresser is so informal, with bad hair, and naturally curly hair is very different from others. His boring hair is flying freely, as if longing for the outside world, and he is flying wildly.
No wonder Xiao He is a comic book geek. I have known each other for more than 20 years, and the number of times she left home to play with me can be understood with one hand.
Every time I go to her house, I can always find her in that "little dark room", curled up quilt, tired computer, naruto playing in a loop, and I can still hear her giggle from time to time.
Graduation season is coming, so I have more time. I went to Shenyang to find her a while ago. Naturally, language talks about finding a job.
When it comes to finding a job, Xiaohe is not interested in talking about animation. I don't quite understand what I'm saying. It's just that righteous words mutter that they don't want to hear these things, and random happiness changes the subject.
Look at this. I didn't say much either. After all, for a normal social graduate like us, the fear of stepping into society is so unacceptable, not to mention that she is a house girl who has little contact with each other.
I had gone back to school to look for a job until I heard from my friends yesterday. I was a little surprised, but I was also very happy. I take the initiative to ask about the recent situation and changes.
"In fact, it's nothing. I ran away for a long time. Although I am free to play, I am also anxious and blaming myself. Maybe I suddenly realized. It's time to take some responsibility for yourself. "
"In addition, things that once felt difficult actually felt much better at the moment when they were recognized and promised."
"Be responsible for yourself", what a familiar sentence. It turns out that growth is the moment when you understand that you need to take responsibility.
Maybe more. Lynn and I are more alike. A comfortable family environment takes care of everything, and you will be a little overwhelmed when you suddenly ask for something with your age.
However, this is not terrible, just as Ting said: "Everything has to be experienced. When you get used to it, you will find yourself more powerful and potential."
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On the way to work the other morning, I saw junior high school students riding bicycles to school and watching them laugh and play happily. That was the first time I felt that I was really past that age.
When we were young, we always let our parents wipe our bottoms when we did bad things, but unconsciously we taught our parents the technology operation technology of the new era and slowly recalled it. In fact, sometimes it is. When their abilities gradually fade away and they gradually rely on us, it is also time for us to gradually have our own values and take responsibility.
Experience and environment will slowly devour our innocence and bring another self who will love and pay.
Everyone wants to be a carefree child, not a responsible adult who worries about everything. When one day, the sharp knife of years hangs over his head, forcing him to bear everything, perhaps unprepared, perhaps suddenly, but no one can escape after all.
So we might as well calm down, slowly accept and learn to bear all the changes brought by years, whether it comes early or late, whether it is good or bad, when things have happened, we will find that everything is not so terrible.
Face it and accept it, and accept it and grow up.
When you grow up, life becomes more interesting.
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