I didn't like sports. I hate sweating all over.
I just want to let my body sweat and detoxify at night. I just want to walk.
When I started walking, my mind began to think about how to solve some recent problems. The next consciousness, I told myself to return consciousness to the present and to the present body.
I only walked this time to connect with my body, so I brought back my wandering consciousness.
When I walk alone, I slowly enter a dynamic meditation. Walk quickly before you know it.
I don't expect to lose weight when I walk. Because I love my body, I want to walk and sweat.
With the stream of consciousness, I suddenly want to say sorry to my body.
I'm sorry I never thought about my physical feelings.
In order to lose weight, I have been tossing myself, and my energy and state are gone, but I still insist on going to the gym for running.
There is no way to eat food happily. Some so-called junk food makes you feel guilty. I obviously don't like some so-called healthy foods, but I just force myself to eat them because of my health.
I want to say sorry to my body, I don't protect my energy and energy well.
I used to bear too many negative thoughts and emotions, because I always regarded myself as a listener. When I don't know how to protect myself, that kind of audience is a trash can full of negative energy.
And I am the kind of person who will listen to others say that I will give birth to virginity and integrity from my heart. In short, I will judge others by my confidante. But that's a single angle, which is unfair to the other side.
So, I want to say sorry to my body for not taking good care of you. I am easy to get along with in order to cater to others and make others think that I am a good person. I regard you as a trash can with negative energy.
Now on second thought, from now on, I want to fill my body with people and things I like, and actively pursue people and things I like, instead of passively letting some people who shouldn't come in step on them.
That's what I am. Don't go. It's not like meditation.
When I think walking is a way to love myself, I walk faster and faster, and I don't feel tired after walking for three times.
I used to do sports because I was not good enough, and there was a taste of self-punishment behind me.
Now my initial heart is to love myself. Although they all do the same thing, my feelings have changed, because my initial heart has changed.
When you begin to love yourself, all actions will be nourished by yourself, which is a kind of self-empowerment.
Moreover, I don't have a mobile phone, and I feel that the world is much quieter and easier.
I like this kind of night walking meditation.
Thank you, dear myself.
good night