Master, master, someone called you ... Shao Wei's name is displayed on the mobile phone. It rang for ten seconds before I collected my thoughts and picked up the phone.

The enthusiasm of "Hello Nange" seems to be conveyed by telephone.

"Hey, Shao Wei, what's the matter? How do you have time to call me? " Shao Wei is my college classmate, roommate and good friend. The core monument of life is Liu Wei, a dissolute rich boy.

"Nothing can't make a phone call?" "Yes, yes, yes. You can call at any time! "

"A small birthday is not a thing, you remember! Come or not? " "How could I forget!" Xiaoqing's real name is Liu Guoqing, because he was born on National Day. His parents probably named it National Day directly based on the simple principle.

"You didn't forget, that you come here, I introduce you to two beautiful sisters. . . "

"Don't pull the calf, if your sister-in-law hears you, she will definitely scold you to death."

"Sister-in-law can't hear." You can feel his wretched smile through the mobile phone. "Don't talk nonsense, Xiaoqing's birthday, just come then, it's all arranged."

"Well, all right, I'll arrange the time." My first reaction is that people who don't go, people who have a bad life, even think that socializing is a luxury show off.

In the past two years, we have always been busy with our respective jobs, and we have talked about getting together many times, all of which have become just talk.

When I just graduated, I went out to rent a house with him and Xiaoqing and looked for a job ambitiously. However, reality has taught us a vivid first lesson. We have just entered the society, and we are really the kind of white people that the company doesn't want.

In the end, I really couldn't find a job, so I did sales. Because of my work, I went to the city next door, which is where I am now.

Shao Wei became a fitness instructor and rented a house with Xiaoqing who planned to engage in the real estate industry.

They are two thirds of my whole university, and one third is my girlfriend, Zhang Qian, who has fallen in love with me since my freshman year.

I promised Zhang Qian that after graduation, I would work hard for two years and then get married. Time gradually lost my dream, time slowly carved her face.

Life and I are playing one joke after another. There is only silence left, because I know that the older you get, the fewer people will forgive you for being poor.

The "chicken soup soft text" brushed by friends circle every day has all kinds of fun, just for fun. The real me, my dream, has long been eaten up by this thing called reality and pulled out. I don't even know what my soul would look like if I picked it up and put it in front of the mirror now.

02

Two days before the National Day holiday, I also promised to celebrate Xiaoqing's birthday and give my mind a holiday.

I asked my boss for leave because I wanted to take this opportunity to go back to my hometown to see my elderly grandmother and my parents who have worked hard for most of my life. I took three days off, plus the National Day holiday, which is exactly ten days.

"Hey, Mom, what's the matter?"

"Nothing, I just want you to be with your father and grandmother. How are you now? " I clearly heard the concern and expectation from the phone, and the old voice whipped me deeply.

"Uh-huh, mom, don't worry, don't you know your son? He must have a good life. "

"Very good, very good."

"Mom, I'll give you two thousand yuan to go home tomorrow. Look at what you want to eat at home and buy some good clothes to use first. If it is not enough, then you are talking. "

My inarticulate mother always calls me at the beginning. Have you eaten? How is the work going? Is there any money left? My mother's concern always reflects my insincere greetings. When I was a child, I always lied to my parents that I had no money. And now I always lie to my parents that I'm fine and I still have money.

"No, small nan, your money to yourself first. Your father and I are not short of money at home. "

"Well, mom, take good care of yourself at home." In fact, they all know that my life has not been very good in recent years.

"Xiao Nan, are you back from vacation?"

"No, I won't. I have to travel during the National Day and I can't go back. "

"Oh, oh, you and Xiao Gan ok? Xiao Gan called a few days ago, and there seems to be something wrong with her mood. If you want to get married, let me know. Your father and I have saved some money over the years ... "

"We're fine, mom. Don't worry. "

"Can't you go home after the holiday business trip?"

"We'll see, mom. I will definitely go back when I have time. "

"I'll hang up. I have work to deal with. Mom, stay at home with dad and take care of yourself. "

Come to think of it, I haven't called home for a month. It's not that I don't remember, but I'm really afraid to hear my parents' voices. But every time my parents ask questions, it seems to me that they are touching news. I don't know if I will become weak if I go on talking, but I can only pretend to be busy.

My mother, a standard rural woman. What poverty brings her the most estimation is that she feels her life is cheap. Everything can be compensated by her life, even if the food is bad, she will eat it so as not to waste it.

I dare not face her aging face every time I go home. Dare not criticize their lifestyle. They deduct money from my life, which makes me feel guilty.

03

"Uncle, buy a newspaper?" Just a few steps out of the station, I was stopped by a little girl who looked only five or six years old.

"Can you receive WeChat?" I casually perfunctory way.

But looking at her thin body covered under her shabby and untidy clothes, a pair of eyes revealed this stubborn and praying talk. I don't know if it is endless sympathy, so I took out a ten-dollar bill and handed it to him.

"Uncle, I'm sorry, there is not enough change. Please wait for me for a while, and I'll give you some change. "

I just took the newspaper, and when I was distracted, the little girl was gone. Forget it, it's just a few dollars. I saw Shao Wei coming down from the driver's seat of a three-series BMW and coming towards me. It has been two years since he got this car back, which was given by his parents. Last time, it was because he mentioned the car and said that the car was a man's mistress, which forced me to persuade him to get together.

"Small, small celebration? Did you come by yourself? "

"Brother, you can meet it. It's good for me to have this relationship. Originally, let you find your own place. Xiaoqing entertained a bunch of beautiful women. Ah, only I am willing to do such a tragic thing. Hey! But I still have to say, Nan Ge, I miss you. " He said, pretending to come and hug me.

I could see that his last sentence was true. With that exaggerated expression, I held back my emotions and stepped forward and kicked him.

"Brother Nan, there are some beautiful sister papers coming up tonight." After getting on the bus, he recovered his true colors in the first sentence.

"Roll over. . . "I pretended to be angry.

"Ha ha ha ....."

Shao Weixian accompanied me to find a hotel and opened a room. He said that his mother came here to take care of him recently. Obviously, she is taking care of him. Actually, she forced him to find a girlfriend. Xiaoqing sometimes dares not go back. So suggested that I stay in a hotel. Then we hurried to the place set for Xiaoqing's birthday. That's a KTV. Just looking at the decoration shows that the price is very high. The private room is very large, which can accommodate about forty or fifty people.

At nine o'clock in the evening, everyone arrived except those who didn't arrive.

My eyes focused on a girl.

She wore a ponytail and delicate light makeup, but she drew a washed broken eyebrow, red lipstick and red nails. Sitting there, gracefully holding a goblet and sipping red wine.

She came here at 7: 05, but she has been sitting quietly in the corner of the private room. Most people come between half past eight and nine o'clock.

The birthday party started very simply. After everyone sang a birthday song to Xiaoqing, they drank two rounds of wine and went their separate ways.

"How's it going, south elder brother? The girl's name is Kim. I'm telling you, she is still single. Haha, let's get to know her. "

Look at Hanako's wretched face! I had to ... obey.

"Gold, come, introduce you to a buddy, this is Li Yunan, the south elder brother who has the best relationship with Xiaoqing as I often say in our university. I haven't left you since you came. "

"Hello, I'm Li Yunan. Your name is Kim. I often hear Shao Wei and Xiaoqing mention you. I always said in front of me that I met a beautiful girl and finally had a chance to meet her. "

"Oh, really? Not so exaggerated. Thank them well. I often hear them talk about you. "

Everyone is an adult, with a clear purpose, but not disturbing.

Wine is the essence of food, and the more you drink, the younger you get. That's nonsense. However, wine is a kind of crazy thing, which can make people tear open the mask of hypocrisy and lower the moral bottom line. Shao Wei drank two glasses of wine with us, and then made an excuse to leave.

With wine, it seems that the relationship is much more harmonious.

I forgot where the topic of blind date came from. I made it up that my family has been forcing me to have a blind date recently, and she feels the same way. Think about it, too. I am twenty-seven or eight years old. Besides these sensitive topics, what else can I have?

As long as a topic is speculative, you will find that everything is speculative.

She let her hair down, and with the laziness after drinking, she looked so pure. At that moment, I only felt my heart beat faster by more than eight degrees.

When she asked me if the blind date had any results, I froze and said firmly:

"No, who can take a fancy to my diaosi!" I am appropriately ashamed, just waiting for her to praise me.

"No, I think you are very good through the chat just now." She didn't skip the routine.

"I especially hate blind date. It's hard to find someone I like. I wish I had a girlfriend who tortured you. " I may be out of my mind and jumped out of such a sentence.

After a few seconds of embarrassment, we chose to skip silently and change a new topic.

I can't remember what we finally talked about. At the end of the birthday celebration, when we were hanging out in KTV, somehow, looking at her, we added, "Jingjing, are you busy tomorrow?" I want to get up with you tomorrow. "

The first time I saw her without refuting, I immediately stopped a taxi.

"Master, go to XX International Hotel."

04

The next day, we didn't go out in the room, and even ordered takeout for dinner.

On the third day, Shao Wei and Xiaoqing came to see me. When they saw me with Kim, their faces were full of surprise. In fact, they already know that we live together. I guess I just surprised Jinn.

On the fourth day, Jin suddenly said that he would go back to deal with his work, and it was solved in one day. When eating alone with Shao Wei and Xiaoqing, they didn't ask anything, so we tacitly skipped this topic selectively. Master, master, someone called you ... the words "dear beautiful girl" pierced my eyes and my heart stung.

"Hey, Qian Qian baby, do you miss your husband?" I said with a smile.

"Roll, don't disgust me, who is your baby, do you remember me? I haven't even called these days. "

"I was wrong, wife, you don't be angry. I'm on a business trip. I'm too busy. It's not like you don't know my stupid company. By the way, this is not Xiaoqing's birthday. I got together with them by the way and drank too much yesterday. "

"You three must be in cahoots." "I am still working overtime on business this National Day. If it weren't for the bonus, I hope we can get married early. I'm not going. "

"Okay, okay, husband, I believe you. Know that it is not easy for you, drink less and don't be too tired. I can wait another two years. "

Her tender care, like a knife, stabbed me in the heart.

I'm scared and I blame myself.

I walk in the shadow of this city with a proud and lonely attitude. Nobody knows me anyway. I can scream and talk to myself. When a group of people looked at me with sharp eyes looking at mental illness, I hurriedly picked up my headphones and put them next to my ears.

Flee back to the hotel, make a phone call with Jason Wu, and go to sleep in a daze.

On the fifth day, around noon 10, I picked up Jinn and went shopping with her, but I didn't buy any high-end brands. The biggest consumption is western food in the evening.

On the sixth day, she said that she would take me to see the scenery of this city.

When I went to the playground, I watched her smile so happily that she was as defenseless as a child. Then they clamored for ice cream, ate marshmallows, floated around in front of me, spoiled me, and then took pictures in various MengMeng poses. ...

When I came out of the shower, she was already asleep with a tired and happy smile on her face. But I laughed and shed tears. Think about Zhang Qian, think about all the good things before, look at Kim, think about the happiness with her these days, think about her real smiling face that day ... two faces alternate in front of my eyes.

"Husband, I want to hold you to sleep. Why are your eyes red? "

"It's okay. When I was taking a shower, the foam got into my eyes. " I don't say much, and she doesn't ask much.

"Well, the husband is lovely and the baby is tired. Let's sleep with the baby in her arms ... "

I didn't fall asleep all night and thought a lot. I shouldn't be sorry for this simple girl. Short pain is better than long pain. Let's go before she wakes up. Let's go!

Say goodbye to Shao Wei Xiaoqing and refuse them to send me.

I really feel like a special jerk. I just want to go alone.

05

"Aunt, I only have one dollar. Can you sell me two apples? "

"Kid, a dollar can't buy two apples. You are so young, go out shopping. Your mother should be worried about you. Hurry home. "

Near the station, I saw the little girl selling my newspaper.

The little girl who couldn't bargain turned her eyes from hope to gloom. I turned around and walked silently forward. I want to ask her why she didn't come back that day. But when I saw her stop next to an elderly beggar sitting on the ground, disheveled and blind, I couldn't help wondering what she would do next. Get the beggar's money? I can't help guessing.

She hesitated for a long time, frowning, and her hesitation was obvious from her face. But the next scene made me extremely ashamed. She clung to the five yuan she had just taken out of her pocket. It was crumpled, but she gave it to the beggar and smiled happily. I stepped forward and handed the beggar ten yuan.

When the little girl saw me, her eyes were obviously a little flustered, and then she said with a little tears, "Uncle, when I went back to find you that day. You left, I really went back ... "I believe she must have gone back because of her kindness.

"Uncle ask you a question, why don't you take five yuan to buy apples? Now you gave it to this beggar? "

"I, I also want to leave five dollars for me and my mother to buy a meal, and there is only one dollar left. I wanted to buy two apples for my mother. My mother was ill once, but after she was cured, she still fell behind. I can't move now. I want my mother to eat something good, because the doctor said that eating some fruit every week is good for metabolism, but that aunt didn't sell it to me. " When she said these words, she looked extremely dull and quiet.

"Wait, my uncle and I will go to my house to get money." I didn't answer her, but asked her, "What should I do if you have a dollar now?"

"Nothing, just buy two steamed buns for my mother to eat. Tell my mother that I ate five yuan's dinner outside. My mother will be happy. She always said I was too young to eat anything better. I am eight years old and in good health. It doesn't matter if you don't eat a meal. " Looking at the sincere smile on the little girl's face, I couldn't say a word.

"Uncle, come with me to my house to get money. My home is not far ahead. " Nod when you are in trouble.

On the way, she told me that a large part of the money she earned by selling newspapers was saved to buy medicine for her mother, and a small part was living expenses because medicine was expensive. Her father left when she just remembered. I don't know where he went and didn't leave a message. She said that she didn't miss her father and didn't hate him.

She walked two corners and arrived at the place she called "home". It's just a simple room, with a window and some neat rags, and a thin and old woman lying on the bed.

"Cough. Cough. Xiaomei came back ... "

"Uh-huh, mom, I brought you some rice." Said, and took out a small jar from there, which contained some pickles.

I dare not look down, nor dare I look down. Tears fell down. I ran out like crazy.

When I went to an ATM nearby, I couldn't help laughing at the only 1,500 yuan left in my card. What the fuck have I done these years?

I want to give Xiaomei 1000 yuan, and I want to tell her, "You are great". I remembered whether my mother bought new clothes or not, and I remembered whether my father was a loose father after drinking. Let's go, let's go. Xiaomei, I owe you this money.

06

Postscript "Hi, Nanzi, where have you been these days?"

"Brother Guo, I took a few days off and went back to my hometown to see."

"Oh, why did you think of calling me?"

"I'm getting married. I will send you an invitation. "

When I came back yesterday, Zhang Qian and I discussed getting married. Finally, after parents' opinions, we decided to get married on the sixth day of the Lunar New Year. The sixth day is a good day, which is an ancient custom.