After returning from my study tour, I threw myself into trivial daily life, while staying awake and savoring what happened in the process. This week, on the whole, I feel very calm and relaxed. I often feel happy and comfortable, and sometimes I feel anxious and angry. I felt it immediately, bless it, and it will be transformed soon. I am very confident in doing my homework every day, and I am very happy with my quirks. In addition to reminiscing and enjoying this study tour every day, I am also thinking about my own gains. In fact, it has already been integrated into the dribs and drabs of life. Even if I write it down now, it may be just a narrow phrase, but even so, it is memorable.
I think the biggest gain of this study tour is that my heart has changed! Combining xu teacher's Wheel of Life and the projection principle, I look at my life and deeply understand that all my situations are caused by myself. I see my father's irresponsibility, my mother's paranoia, my husband's self-isolation, and my mother-in-law's strength ... It turns out that these are not the truth, but the manifestation of my inner karma and the projection of my inner heart. People and things outside are just a blank projection cloth, and everyone can only see the world revealed by their own karma. The script of the whole life is just a play written, directed and performed according to the law of cause and effect. Everyone in my life, such as relatives, friends and enemies, is only because of karma, karma and cooperation. Similarly, I appeared in other people's lives, and I just played a play with others.
Therefore, when I changed carefully, I saw my ignorance, arrogance, stubbornness, selfishness, control desire and irresponsibility ... I found that everyone around me was expressing, cooperating and helping me in their own way, and everyone was full of wisdom, worthy of respect, gratitude and learning. However, my lack is not reality. Perfection is my truth and everyone's truth. Only by jumping out of reincarnation and no more karma flowing in your heart can you see the truth. So I made up my mind to leave samsara, not only to see the truth for myself, but also to try my best to help all beings see the truth. I feel the truth and confidence behind this wish, and I feel the strength and joy behind this wish!
With the blessing of this strength and joy, I have a new understanding of "knowing how to dream, dreaming well". In the past, my heart was troubled and I always wanted to escape into an empty net; Now I am grateful and in the world of mortals. Because, although I am in the secular world, I can also lead to separation all the way. First of all, actively undertake their own old jobs. Because of the initiative, it is no longer bitter, just like being in debt. Isn't it a happy and relaxing thing to pay off debts? At the same time, I am also very happy to spread my good deeds. In the past, I thought bodhicitta was just a concept, a little empty, but now I can really feel that everyone I meet and all sentient beings are fertile soil for me to sow. I just planted the seeds of flowers with joy. Every step, when the sunshine and rain are moist enough, it will naturally emit fragrance.
How can we ensure that we plant the seeds of flowers instead of thorns? To this end, xu teacher provides us with the only way to watch our hearts: relaxation, concentration and awareness. Whenever emotional thoughts rise, stay aware, hold spells and blessings, observe merits (no matter what the situation, give love directly), and grasp your heart (I am grateful that everyone is a fertile ground for me to plant the seeds of liberation, and I hope everyone can plant the causes of liberation and finally get rid of it).
Under such a mind and consciousness, where is there bitterness and disappointment in life? Every moment and every situation is an opportunity for self-cultivation and transformation! I begin to understand why xu teacher is very happy, obedient and comfortable every day, and always comes up with a lot of tips for practicing, because he really integrates his own practice into every bit of life and makes a good demonstration by himself, so as to benefit all beings at any time like a great treasure.
While writing down these feelings, I am also afraid. What I see and feel now is only the presentation of my karma and thoughts (including fear). Maybe some of them are still in my mind, maybe the projection is still limited, but I know that practice is like feeding children, not only in the right way, but also day after day and year after year. When I let go of my persistence, I can become more relaxed; As my heart grows bigger, the world I show will become more and more spacious; When I really learn to be a man, my inner Buddha nature will naturally appear!
Thanks to xu teacher and Cai for their merciful leadership and timely beating. Thank all fellow initiates for their great love and wisdom. I am willing to take care of myself from time to time, practice Buddhism diligently, and always repay all merits to all sentient beings. I hope that all sentient beings will be enlightened and liberated as soon as possible.
Li 20 18.09. 18
Sister Cai Rong said she didn't like taking pictures. Seeing how beautiful the photos were, I put more photos of her. Ha ha.
Looking at her photo, I found her face changed. She thinks so herself. What we often hear is that the face and the heart are synchronized. When we cultivate our minds, our appearance will look softer, more comfortable and happier. I am very happy with Sister Cai Rong's progress and transformation! )