Just a few months ago, Xiaohua and I broke up.
No one will inexplicably give up what should be remembered in their bones. I sat alone in an armchair on the balcony, looking at the river in the distance in the evening. The last light in the sky dissipated on the dark mountain and became a dividing line. Migratory birds will look for summer, just as people look for the future.
This chair was bought by Xiaohua from a second-hand shopping mall, that is, a flea market. I can lean my whole body on this chair, put my feet on the concrete railing and drink cheap snow beer. I can sit for hours.
I first met Xiaohua three years ago, when I moved here. After graduating from college, I left my hometown for the second time, surpassing the distance from school to home and went to a completely unfamiliar third-tier city.
Only with a bachelor's degree, it is difficult to get ahead in a big city. The huge employment pressure made me choose to escape for the first time. In a third-tier city, I can earn enough money for my life and send a small deposit home every month.
At that time, Xiaohua wandered around the flea market every day. She is a local and her father is a vendor in a flea market. She has been wandering in this old street since she was a child. Because of her peers, the self-employed people on the street watched her grow up and treated her as a daughter.
I just moved here three years ago and found this street, which was recommended by my aunt. This is an interesting street to buy second-hand goods. Maybe I can find some treasure. With this in mind, I wander around the old streets from time to time.
I have actually seen Xiaohua several times, with neat short hair and clean face. She chatted with the vendor's parents. In order to get an orange and carrot pillow, she begged and broke off all kinds of hands. Finally, she cut the 50-piece pillow into five pieces, took out five steel shovels and patted them on the vendor's hands. The stall owner rolled his eyes and reluctantly waved her away.
This girl is very interesting. I looked at her and witnessed the whole process. She turned to look at me. She gave a wry smile, a little embarrassed, and turned away.
I just came to this city and joined a small company. The salary is good. Although the overtime hours are not long and there is no overtime pay, it gives me enough weekend time to wander around. A short distance upstream of the river, you can reach the old street, and there is a barbecue stall at the corner, selling all kinds of snacks. In the evening, it is very lively here.
I go to the flea market every week on the rest day, all kinds of novelty things, and when I am hungry, I go to the barbecue stall to eat something.
"Boss, twenty skewers of roast mutton and two skewers of vegetarian dishes!"
"Well, little brother, why don't you have two bottles of beer?" The boss smiled, because there were many people coming, so the boss's attitude would be more cordial.
"Well, Qingdao, iced, thank you."
"Wait a minute, little brother, just sit down and bring it to you right away."
I found a seat by the river. The night wind is relatively strong, and there is no high temperature in summer nights.
Once people are alone, they like to miss the past. I remember when I was in high school, there was also a river running through the town. The mountains in the south of the Yangtze River are like water, just like the blood of an ancient giant flowing through this red land. People who come out to wander will always think of their hometown, although at first it made me desperate to escape.
"Hello, your kebab." An ethereal female voice interrupted my boring memories and felt familiar, as if I had heard it somewhere. When I turned to look in the direction of the voice, only a figure with a ponytail and eating mutton skewers was left on the table and plate.
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Two summers ago, I became Xiaohua's boyfriend. Today, two years later, a few months ago, it was early summer, and Xiaohua became my ex-girlfriend.
Although it is autumn, the autumn tiger still has prestige. The balcony is a good place. When you have nothing to do, you can lean back in the lazy chair and spend the time you should have wasted. Since I broke up with Xiaohua, because I don't have any friends, the contacts in my mobile phone don't have people I often contact except for work needs, which is why I don't like to watch QQ and WeChat. It hasn't been opened for two or three days in a row. Even if it is opened, there is generally no information except Tencent News.
The wind at night always reminds people of the past. I thought that the full years suddenly dried up in the long river of life, like a fish in a river, struggling in a waterless life. But I always find reasons to forget, reading alone, watching movies alone, enjoying the bright starry sky and the lack of moon in a small city.
I have lived this life since we broke up. Xiaohua moved out, talked about love for nearly two years, and lived together for two years in the single apartment I rented. I suddenly realized that I had lived so humble before Xiaohua came.
I lay in an armchair with my feet on the railing. I remember Xiaohua said before that if the railings were not short, how could I put on my legs?
My legs are not short. Xiaohua tried it and put it on the railing.
"Look, I just put it on, as if my legs are longer than yours, hahaha, my long legs," she smiled in an ostentatious manner.
"Why don't you come down from me first and try again?" I held her.
She put her leg on mine. "No, I want to lie down. I have chosen this chair for a long time, and I can sit for two people, hehe. "
"Is it cold? Carry you in? " We are all wearing pajamas. Although it is late summer, the temperature at night is still a bit chilly.
"No, I want to bask in the moon." Xiaohua moved, moved on me, trying to find a comfortable position to lie down. "Ah, what are you thinking? It's killing me, "she said angrily.
"Did you move first?" I am very helpless.
"pervert."
I put my chin gently on her head and said nothing.
She whispered, "Silly dog."
A lot of things have passed, all passed. To tell the truth, Xiaohua is not my first love, and I am not Xiaohua's first love boyfriend. Not all good beginnings have good endings. Many times, people are not black and white like urban novels. The world we live in is like an overturned paint tray, mixed with gray and swept across the blackboard like white chalk.
In Xiaohua's words, we are all adults, and things on our shoulders should be able to withstand.
"One day I woke up and found that there was no you around, and on my right was your favorite toy ..." The mobile phone rang, and this song "Lesions" was once sung by Xiaohua occasionally. Feeling good, I set it as a ringtone. I'm too lazy to change after breaking up. It's the boss manager calling. There's usually nothing that won't call.
"hello?"
"Qin, can you come and pick me up? I'm at Shengtian Hotel. There's a dinner party here. I'm sorry to bother you so late. If there is really no time, forget it. " I felt a little noisy over there, so I spoke loudly.
I glanced at my watch. It's already past nine in the evening. Usually, the manager is very kind to me. I should really have something to do, or I wouldn't have called. I replied very well and asked her to send me the detailed address. I took the key and went out, because it was just autumn and it was not cold, so I wore a pair of slippers.
Going out to take a taxi to Wu Jie's hotel is actually not a high-end wine spot, but an ordinary food stall. I knocked on the door of the bag. There are several men, Wu Jie and a girl from work. I never liked the entertainment culture on the wine table. It's just a seemingly vivid picture, gray mixed with wine.
I waved to Wu Jie. She got up and said a few words of sorry to the people around her, and went out with the little girl. But it was a long journey, and I don't know when it would be until my face stood at the door with natural facial paralysis.
Our party went out of the food stall, and I wanted to send them home early by taxi. After all, we don't know each other very well. I walked in front and they followed.
"Stop it." Fifth sister said to the little girl, with a helpless face.
"But that beast ..." The little girl was very angry.
"That's the customer." Wu Jie paused.
"Animals, too!"
"What's the matter?" I heard something was wrong, so I turned to ask.
The little girl wanted to say it, but she was overwhelmed by Wu Jie's shaking her head. The little girl stamped her feet angrily.
"What the hell happened?" I looked at the little girl with a straight face and a serious tone. "Say it."
"Oh, let me tell you, I was very moved when I first left." Wu Jie look wrong, a little embarrassed.
I am very angry. "Where did you touch it?"
"Bastards," the little girl snapped, "those bastards, at first glance, are not good things, a group of animals, how his mother gave birth to this group of things ..." Wu Jie was silent.
"Wait for me." I turned back to the hotel.
"Don't be impulsive!" Sister Wu tried to pull me, but I walked fast and didn't pull me.
"Nothing."
After more than ten minutes, I shook my head and got hit by a bottle.
"Are you all right?"
"Nothing." I recruited two taxis for them and sent them away. I also took a taxi and left soon. After all, I hit someone, so let's get out of here. They dare not call the police. After all, this is also related to their reputation. People who do business should always behave themselves. Hit them, and this list will definitely be yellow. Everyone says that impulse is the devil, but some things are absolutely intolerable. You might as well reason with your fists.
This is the second time I have encountered such a thing. Xiaohua has met before, and my head was torn off for the second time. But Xiaohua is at the barbecue stall, and the gangsters I am with are still not clean. Finally, uncle, the owner of the barbecue stall, helped me beat those bastards.
When I got home, I boiled a pot of hot water and found my head bleeding in the taxi. Fortunately, there were bandages and sterile cotton at home, so I simply cleaned myself, wrapped it casually and fell asleep. My head really hurts.
Life goes on like this, but the cooperation continues without the yellow list, and I don't want to be involved in the water depth inside. However, after breaking up, I will still go to Uncle Barbecue's stall, because the price is reasonable, so there are many people, but there will always be seats, which is the treatment of regular customers.
The head injury was just right. The doctor told me not to drink, but Xiaohua was not here. I wanted to drink some wine, so I went naturally. Uncle knows Xiaohua. After all, Xiaohua once helped uncle set up a stall, and she has grown from short hair to long hair for a long time.
Uncle knows that Xiaohua and I broke up, but he can't understand why two good people broke up. Every time I go, I will be recited. More often, I don't care too much. The thick skin is worn out with Xiaohua.
At work, Wu Jie feels kinder to me than before, but that's all. This is a profession. I work honestly and dare not have other ideas. Working in a small business, the boss has more than one company, and he usually doesn't see others. Although the company is small, it has everything, such as coffee machine and lounge. This job is suitable for people like me who eat and support the elderly.
I don't have much ambition. It is enough to live a good life, be filial to adoptive parents in the world and settle down in the next life. Xiaohua is two years older than me. She is a petite girl, but she has a big temper. I am not much better. When we first got together, there was no such formality between us. After all, we are all so old. Turtles like mung beans and get together.
We got together soon after the fight at the first barbecue stall. At that time, someone molested him, and several strong men sitting at the scene wanted to come up, but this opportunity for a bear to save a beautiful woman must not be missed, so I went up to see her lose her head. This is Kobanawa's after-the-fact analysis when I talked about it together. I think it makes sense. She immediately nodded her thanks, and she smiled.
Xiaohua is a science and engineering woman, and she is usually busy. As a liberal arts man, I occasionally write some copywriting and speeches to earn money for a cup of milk tea. Xiaohua works in a big company. She seems to be the deputy team leader, Xiao Guan. She didn't tell me. Anyway, her standard of living is higher than that of me, who is a half-bucket water bearer.
I once asked her why she went to the barbecue stall to help when she was not short of money. Her reason is a bit unexpected, saying that she wants to eat a free barbecue. Uncle is an acquaintance after all. Xiaohua wants me to be her assistant when she takes me to the barbecue. She is a waitress, and I am a waiter's attendant, serving the waiter. She said that this is the task assigned by the organization to Comrade Qin Shi. Don't live up to the high expectations of the organization. This is the test of your organization. She said, pretending to make me bend down and pat me on the shoulder.
I secretly asked uncle barbecue why Xiaohua came to help. Uncle is busy brushing hot sauce for leeks.
"Little girl, she will spare a few days every month to help. I have run a barbecue stall here for more than ten years. She watched our neighbors grow up. Every family was poor before, and she was embarrassed when she was a child. Ah, I can't stand it. Every time I saw it, I was forced to give her two kebabs. Although I am not a good person, the little girl called me uncle for more than ten years. I have a sweet mouth and I am a villager.
"So, the little girl will come to help. Don't bully her, boy. Let me know. I will beat you carefully ... "I quickly hid to work.
"Hey, Chinese cabbage has been arched by pigs." Uncle's soliloquy came from behind, which made me feel extremely depressed. I thought to myself, am I so ugly?
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Winter in southern towns is nothing special except wet and cold. There is little snow, usually once every few years, but it was really heavy in 2000. I made a snowman when I was in primary school in my hometown. That small mountain village is further south than the small city where I am now.
In order to repay the last shot, Wu Jie introduced my girlfriend to me from time to time. To tell the truth, I don't feel anything about anyone more beautiful than Xiaohua, someone in their thirties with an annual salary of one million, or someone with a small family. I've seen it several times. It's embarrassing for Sister Wu.
Wu Jie is in his thirties and still single. Whenever I use this excuse to talk back to her, she always says I hate iron and never produce. She kindly introduced my girlfriend to me, but she didn't like any of them. In fact, as we all know, Wu Jie's sweetheart has gone abroad, and Wu Jie has been waiting for several years, but the girl's youth has been around for several years. These gossips were heard by colleagues while drinking coffee in the lounge.
I have always felt that my temper is lazy, much like my high school political teacher. There is no courseware in class, no multimedia is used, only a book is brought, and very little is written on the blackboard. I can speak two classes with my mouth open. This kind of teaching method, which is extremely irresponsible to outsiders, makes us very useful. The school leader criticized it and other teachers talked about it, but he was still unmoved.
This kind of free-range life lasted for two and a half years in my high school. In the words of a generation, it is your own business to study what you are willing to study and what you are unwilling to study. This is the most distinctive feature of that era. At that time, no one may pass the college entrance examination 100. At present, this backward education method will be severely scolded to death in big cities, and the discerning eyes of the masses will pierce people. But grazing sheep are always more adaptable to the environment than captive sheep, and the flowers in the greenhouse can withstand much wind and rain.
Xiaohua actually likes snow. I remember giving her a crystal ball on her birthday. There are little snowflakes floating in it, which are very cute, and there are small models of Santa Claus and his elk, but it is hard to find such things now.
When Xiaohua moved away, she took all the things that were given to her, saying that in a moment, so did she. She bought most of the odds and ends in my house herself. Towels, toothbrushes and cups are all lovers' money, and even pajamas and close-fitting clothes are bought one by one after being together.
She left, but left her heart, saying that she would come back to pick me up when no one wanted me, so I have been waiting for the brave female knight to bring a shameless bachelor home. She said that she wanted to be a hero, take me out of the single dog community and stop making me a disaster.
Xiaohua went to the north and went to Syracuse. She said with tears that she couldn't accept long-distance relationships and she had no confidence in herself. She gave many reasons, saying that I kissed her without brushing my teeth, that I slept without washing my feet, and that I was taller than her. We are all adults, so everyone has grown up, right? At last we were all silent. That night, we did nothing but lie in bed until dawn.
The next day, she returned to normal, as if nothing had happened except breaking up. The following week, she seemed to say goodbye to an old friend, saying that after she left, I should take good care of myself, don't drink too much every day, wash my feet and sleep every day, and especially, remember to brush my teeth before kissing other girls. As she spoke, she cried. I hugged her and wiped her tears with my fingers.
I can't get anything back. I took a long vacation for a week and stayed with her all day. She resigned before I broke up. We stayed at home for three days, and then went to eat a game everywhere. To outsiders, it seems like a couple having a good time, but I know that in fact, there is great sadness in our eyes, but she hides it with a slapstick smile and I hide it with silence.
On the last day, we went back to the rental house and I helped her pack up.
"I took your cup away. You see, I need to drink more water when I get to the north. Your cup is big, you can decorate it more, hehe. " Xiaohua smiled and stuffed my Pikachu cup into the suitcase. "Don't worry, I'll give you my cup back. Very fair, hahaha. "
"Are you reluctant to part with your husband?" I helped her fold clothes and watched her smile.
"What do you say?" She stood up and hugged my head.
I kissed her and pressed her to the bed for a long time.
"Ah, you pervert, flirting with a good woman!"
"I'm flirting with my wife." Kiss again.
"Hum, they all broke up." Xiaohua hugged my head.
"Just meet again after parting."
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The next day, [endif] I put her on the plane.
"Hug me, hee hee." She laughed and cried.
"Hmm ~" I dare not push too hard, but I'm afraid she will walk too fast. I just held her until she went in for a security check.
The bird has been flying in the sky, and her plane will also arrive in the north and start a new journey. There is still a long way to go.
My lazy life didn't stop because my sweetheart left. I left her trace in my heart. I sincerely wish you a pleasant journey.
Xiaohua, break up with me for three months at most.