What I heard the most when I was a child was "Let go of his temper!"
The person who said this has been away from me for more than 8 years, and his voice and face seem to be yesterday, but when he wants to hear it again, things have changed.
I let my temper come and stumbled to the age of no doubt. But even if I have encountered bumps in my life and work, I have never been unhappy. After all, it was my own temper, and I chose it myself. I must believe that this is the best.
Looking back on my experience of growing up in this "free-range" state, I have to say that I am really grateful to the person who said this. Since I was sensible, my life has been decided by myself.
From elementary school to junior high school, I was a monitor for nine years. After working in high school for half a year, I was too busy to concentrate on my studies and resigned willfully. Later, I went to college, was unknown, and began to look at the world coldly. I was bound by rules and regulations, so I let my temper go and didn't fit in. Later, in the workplace, I couldn't please and flatter the horse, so I kicked it directly on the horse's ass. Although I changed several pairs of shoes, I felt very comfortable.
Later, when I met her in my life, she made my temper come. Even if I couldn't sleep during the day and night, working overtime on a business trip was like a gyro, and both children at home didn't see it until they grew up. She only pays silently behind her back, smiles at the children's joy and occasionally makes me a cup of coffee or hot tea after the children fall asleep.
The child has grown up, basically the same as when I was a child. "Let their temper go!"
I said this, and now I have left my job. I can really accompany them and live up to a missed time.
I have begun to control my temper, like a middle-aged man entering the age of no doubt. Looking at the gains and losses of a past event, I still inadvertently let my temper comment on my half life. After all, there is still a long way to go, and you have to walk slowly and watch the children grow up.
Looking back on the terrible experience of this year, I suddenly feel that it is time for my temper to converge.
At the beginning of the year, the COVID-19 epidemic felt the value of life, witnessed the raging fire in Xichang City, Sichuan Province, and felt the ruthlessness of nature. It took me a month to lose weight, and I lost more than 20 kilograms to a thin figure. I went back to the Northeast again and again and decided to give up smoking 17 years, which has been successful for 50 days. Inadvertently, I actually challenged the day shift for more than 20 days. During this period, I also had my first tooth extraction, twice at a time.
Connecting these little things together, my wife said, this year, you just stopped working, such as fitness, quitting smoking, reading and writing, so don't let your temper toss things. Maybe I feel that I am restraining my temper, but in the eyes of people around me, it may be my temper. I have done fitness before, and my weight soared soon. I quit smoking before, but I smoked again in less than a week; I've read books before, but when I can't finish one, I throw it away and play with my mobile phone. As for writing, I used to hate it because I had to eat. Now I practice writing in class. It won't be long before I get bored.
However, fitness, this year I planned very well, and my weight remained at the level after fat reduction without rising; Quitting smoking is still going on, and it may take the rest of my life to verify it; Read for at least one hour every day; Writing, I am doing now, even if it is just to vent my emotions, I am insisting.
Therefore, I just smiled at my wife's words, even if I restrained myself, I would let my temper come. I just don't want to make a mess of the rest of my life, because I believe that as long as I stay in the sun, I will be worthy of all the good things in the future.