? Son! We've been father and son for so many years, dad. For the first time, I want to talk to you about something between you and me and between our family through writing.

? In our family, in the process of your growth, in order to protect and educate your growth, my mother and I always talk to you a lot at ordinary times, but we seldom communicate with you in written language and never write to you. You always listen to our sermons and sometimes tell you some truth. We always like to give you orders from the perspective of our elders and teachers. We may force you to do something that we think will be good for you, but you are unwilling to do it. After a long time, you may get tired of this way of communication between us. In the end, you may hate us both, ask too much of you and remind too much, and think that we usually talk to you for a long time and don't understand you. When you don't listen to an argument with us, we will say something drastic to you in a rage and even punch you. For what your parents did to you, son, I'm here today, dad, and I want to say to you sincerely: I'm sorry, my mother and I shouldn't treat you like that. Please forgive our recklessness and disrespect for you. Some of our words and deeds hurt your sensitive self-esteem that needs to be protected.

? But, son, I still want to tell you that even so, I can say frankly that my mother and I are the people who give you life in this world, and we love you the most in this world. We hope you can grow up happily and healthily, live happily every day, find what you really like to do when you grow up, find a suitable position in society, give play to your talents and values, and let people around you in this world be influenced by you.

? Son! Next, let's try to speak in this way, shall we? Please read this letter I wrote to you patiently and carefully. This may be a long letter. Please calm down and read slowly, because this is an important decision I have made for a long time since you were born in our family for fifteen years. In the past two months, because of your school, I know that your heart is very tangled and painful, and it is also very contradictory and painful. My mother and I have been worried and angry about you for a long time, which has exhausted us. Seeing your present state, my mother and I are very worried and distressed! Because you are our son and the only continuation of our life, we hope to see you adjust your state as soon as possible, stand up again, face up to problems, face difficulties, and return to your previous state of self-confidence and normal sunshine. In your present situation, you may find it a little difficult and think too much, so we see that you are a little self-destructive, especially recently. Even if you are like this now, my mother and I feel that this is not what you really need in your heart. From the heart, you still want to be positive and better than yourself, right? .

? Son! Don't you like BEYOND, a famous rock band in Hong Kong? Their band name means "beyond" in Chinese. When you are happy, you always like to tell me how much you admire Ka Kui Wong, the founder of this band. It is said that the songs he wrote are very nice, inspiring and manly. The members of this band are very talented and have an irreplaceable position in the whole world Chinese music scene. There was even a time when you posted a portrait of Ka Kui Wong in your room and bought a short-sleeved shirt with BEYOND band printed on it online. In summer, you wear them almost every day, which makes you feel extremely proud. You also learn to play and sing their songs online every day, such as I really love you, Wide Sky, Our Days, The Good Earth and Cold Rainy Night. You even told me that if you have the opportunity to visit the cemetery in Ka Kui Wong, Hong Kong in the future, you will bow deeply to your idol and offer sincere wishes to the great rock band you admire most. You also said that your future dream is to form a rock band of your own, and even you have named this future band "God's Band". You see, son, how creative your name is, which shows how idealistic, ambitious and thoughtful you used to be. Whenever you mentioned this to me before, my mother and I always supported your idea, always encouraged you and inspired you. As long as you like it, you can do it and make it the best, even as your lifelong pursuit! So no matter how difficult you are now, don't give up, stick to it, believe in your talent and ability, and believe that through your unremitting efforts, you will catch up and return to a positive and confident state. We are a family, and fate binds us together. No matter how many difficulties you will encounter in the future, let our family's hearts be together, hold hands tightly and shoulder all the difficulties together, ok?

? Son! I believe that as long as we all keep moving forward and bravely face all kinds of problems and troubles in life and growth, all difficulties can be overcome, and we can all be the best of ourselves and live the happy and free life we want! Son! Come on! You are the best, and your position in this world is irreplaceable. We all want to be masters of our own destiny and achieve a wonderful life!

? Son! Today, I summon up confidence and courage to write to you for the first time as your father and friend. Would you please accept this way? Next, in this letter, I will slowly tell you something about me and my mother, as well as about you and our family. I hope you can feel something helpful and valuable to you.

? Let me talk about some things before my mother and I met. It's all about my college days, and it's quite interesting, because your father and I used to be frivolous, frivolous, full of personality and uninhibited. I also came from my school days, and experienced the inner suffering and pain in the process of growing up, but in the end I overcame myself and got out of depression.

? My mother and I were alumni of Hanyin Middle School more than 20 years ago, that is, in the early 1990s. At that time, we were both sixteen or seventeen years old (I was the same age as my mother, and I was five days older than him), not much older than you are now. I am one level above her. Although we are both Puxi people, we didn't know each other at that time. Maybe the fate between us has not been opened yet. Maybe God deliberately didn't let us meet in advance, and I never thought we could meet and know each other later. We came together, holding hands, and our hearts went through this 18 year in our respective lives (my mother and I knew each other 18 year, and got married on the tenth day of the twelfth lunar month this year 17 year). It can be said that without my mother and me, without the combination of my mother and me, there would be no home we have now, and of course there would be no you. Therefore, we should cherish what we have now and thank God for giving us a great and precious fate in this world, so that our family can share the same fate, share joys and sorrows and create a better future together. Speaking of which, you may be curious about when and where we met, why we finally came together hand in hand, and what's the story between me and her? Yes! When you grow up, you may still vaguely remember some things that our family experienced. When you are young, you are still ignorant or have no memory of some things. Until now, you have entered junior high school and grown up. Compared with the previous rulers, especially our family, you will be impressed by some major changes in recent years.

? Please let me go on with my mother. Didn't I say that she and I were alumni, but we didn't know each other at that time, and we didn't think that the most important other half in our future life was actually around us. Tell me, is this the magic and beauty of fate? Later, in the summer of 199 1, I was admitted to the Mathematics Department of Ankang Normal University (now Ankang College, but it is not as easy as it is now. At that time, more than 0/0,000 high school graduates in the county were admitted to 40 or 50 college students, and your father was one of these lucky 40 or 50 people. In this slightly ordinary university, most of us students admitted from rural areas cherish this once-in-a-lifetime learning opportunity, because it can change the fate of many rural students, so we all redouble our efforts, study hard, strive for success, and add luster to our future lives. It is with this belief that I cherish the three years of studying in Ankang, living frugally, working hard and plain, striving for the best in my studies and studying hard. After learning professional courses well, I spend almost every day in the school reading room or classroom except weekends. Even when I went back to the dormitory to rest, the other students had already slept, and I had to light candles and read for a while. The feeling of galloping freely in the sea of books and quietly tasting the book fragrance has accompanied my whole college life. In this way, during my three years in college, I read many useful books, wrote more than a dozen reading notes, learned to write and enjoy music, learned to play the guitar with my teacher, and actively participated in many club activities and cultural and sports activities organized by the school. I remember1at the beginning of April, 1994, our school held the first campus guitar competition in conjunction with the then Ankang Guitar Association. I also won two prizes, guitar playing and classical guitar playing. I was praised as a beautiful talk in our mathematics department and Hanyin Hometown Association, and I was more confident than before. Oh, by the way, I was one of the founders of the first guitar association in our school at that time, and I was the only head of the mathematics department in the association. This history should be recorded in the corner of the history of Ankang Teachers College!

? Do you still remember your uncle Zhou (Zhou, from Xunyang)? He is my best classmate and came to our home last year. He is also very talented and likes reading, writing and art best. He is eloquent, humorous and knowledgeable, and everyone calls him "Kan Shen". In the last year, he and I lived in bunk beds in the same dormitory. There are 33 people in my class, and I have the closest relationship with him, and I hardly care about you and me financially. We share the living expenses paid by the school every month. He is very kind and loyal to people, of course I can't stand it! One of my favorite things to do with him in college is to go to the bookstore or bookstore every weekend. When we saw Xinyi's book, we bought it with the remaining living expenses every month, and then studied and discussed it together. Usually we often walk together, exercise together, talk about literature and art together, talk about the future, talk about life, talk about ideals, talk about struggle, appreciate each other, encourage each other, go hand in hand and improve together. Now, although we are both married and separated, we seldom get together, but our relationship is still very good. We often chat on the phone, talk to each other and care about each other. I think that people can have such intimate friends all their lives, and there will be no regrets in this life. Until now, I still miss the relaxed and happy time of studying and living with him. The simple and sincere friendship between us and my short three-year college life brought me a lot of positive changes in my personality at that time, and I gradually became positive, sunny and enthusiastic from my initial shyness and unsociable. I really want to thank the innocence and beauty of those years, from which I have gained a lot, which will affect and accompany my life.

? Through three years' hard work, your uncle Zhou and I, as well as many other students, graduated successfully in July 1994 and got the long-awaited college diploma. We were all assigned to the middle schools in their respective counties as teachers, and we had a proper and stable job of our own and became a glorious people's teacher.

? I remember before I left school, you and Uncle Zhou and other students with similar personalities were still gathering in a restaurant near the school. We were all very excited and sad at that time. After drinking a few glasses of wine, we all started to cry. I feel that we will never meet again after graduation, and our three-year friendship and fate in college will stop here, which makes us a little sad and lost. However, we are more excited and longing for the future life. Our efforts were not in vain. Our persistence has been affirmed and recognized by the school and the country, and our family members have also sincerely supported and praised us. We have all become the pride in the eyes of our families and the capital worth showing off to others. Because we have successfully graduated from college and have our own jobs, we can realize our life value and get closer to our life ideals. From now on, we can't let our parents worry about our fatigue and get up early and get greedy for the dark. Everyone sighed at the thought. My classmates and I said goodbye to each other in the bar. We all went back to the dormitory to pack our bags with an indescribable complex mood, quietly left the university campus where we lived for three years, and left our classmates and friends who accompanied us day and night. We can't bear to see the inseparable scene when we finally leave, and we have mixed feelings.

I remember it was a day in early July in summer. Wan Li is clear and sunny. It's a fine day. I waited until almost all the other students in the dormitory were out of school. In the vast and empty dormitory, I slowly packed my things without greeting any of my classmates. As soon as I got out of the dormitory, I took a taxi and went straight to the bus stop. Sitting on the shuttle bus home, I thought my college life was over. Many students are far apart, so they may never meet again. What awaits us is a day full of infinite possibilities and a bright future, which needs us to face alone, and may also be full of difficulties and challenges. I said to myself, what are you afraid of? You have grown up and graduated from college. You will use your knowledge and wisdom to face all the difficulties and challenges you will encounter in the future. You must go forward bravely! In this way, I remembered the scenes of college campus life in those days. I just took out my photo album and browsed it page by page, and Zhang Jingjing remembered it ... Ah, it made me have mixed feelings about my college life, and I couldn't help crying.

? Sitting on the rickety bus home, I couldn't calm down for a long time and thought a lot. In this way, I ended my three-year college life in sadness, returned to our hometown in Puxi, plunged into my cabin, helped you two say hello to open a shop, watched your favorite campus folk songs and listened to your favorite campus folk songs. Every day, I also have a leisurely and happy life. But I am anxious every day, and I am looking forward to the news of my homework. Sometimes when I am bored, I will fiddle with my guitar a few times and win my favorite songs. I feel like I'm in college again.

1994' s summer vacation passed day by day in the hot summer (it was nearly 50 days of drought, and the rice in the field was dying, and the farmers suffered heavy losses, and our family was no exception). Finally, at the end of August, when the summer vacation was coming to an end, I received a transfer order and was assigned to teach in Longtai Nine-year School, which was under the jurisdiction of Laopu West District at that time. At the moment I got the transfer order, a stone in my heart finally fell to the ground: my work unit was finally implemented, and I was about to go to work, and I could earn a salary and finally stand on my own feet. I am really ecstatic and excited. At this time, I clearly know that I am about to start an unknown new life journey. No matter what kind of world is waiting for me ahead, I silently warn myself in my heart: you must go on confidently, practically and resolutely. I think it should be the bottom line and proper demeanor of a real man to meet the challenge of fate, stand up and be a sincere and upright person and shoulder his own responsibilities.

? Son! Having said so much about my experiences as a student, you will surely wonder: When did my mother appear in your life? What are the stories between you and your mother? Please don't worry. Next, I will tell you slowly.

? Didn't you say I was going to find a new job as soon as I got the transfer? On September 1 day this year, it was still cloudless and sunny in Wan Li. Your uncle Chen () and uncle Shen () go to the school newspaper by bike. Your uncle Chen and I are alumni of Ankang Normal College at the same level. He studied Chinese, and we were close friends when we were studying in Ankang. Your uncle Shen is three years younger than me. He graduated from the physical education class of Ankang No.2 Normal University, and we didn't know him until we knew that he was assigned to a school with me. At the same time, we are both fellow villagers and live in a small street. His hometown and ours are both by the Moon River, separated by a river, so we gradually got to know him. ), in this way, the three of us became colleagues and buddies linked by fate, all teaching in the same school, working and living together at ordinary times, going home together on weekends and going back to school together on Sunday afternoons. I remember that day, the sun was very hot and the weather was very hot. After the headmaster assigned work tasks to the three of us, he ordered the master of the school canteen to fry some simple dishes, so that our new three people could have dinner with the old teachers of the school. The atmosphere was very good. Because it was very hot at that time, we were all sweaty after drinking several cups of three liquids, so we took off our short sleeves and went shirtless. Maybe it was our first day at work, and we were very excited and happy, so we opened the door to drink and play customs clearance. After several rounds of guessing boxing, several bottles of white wine were swept away and "burned" in our stomachs. Before I knew it, Uncle Chen and I drank too much, and we became addicted to alcohol. At first, we talked a lot. Finally, the two of us fell asleep, and all the other teachers dispersed, leaving only Uncle Shen to accompany us. This is what happened on my first day at work. More than 20 years have passed, and it is still vivid and fresh in my memory.

The three of us worked in this school for one year from1September 1994 to1July 1995. You Shenshu taught physical education, and Chen Shu cooperated with me in a class. I teach math, serve as a class teacher, and have five music classes. And you, Uncle Chen, study Chinese and teach Chinese and English in this class. All three of us have just graduated from school and come together with beautiful dreams and visions for the future. It is when we are in the prime of life that we work with all our strength.

? Every day we work and live together, learn from each other in class, go home after class, and play with our classmates after class. So happy! The most interesting thing is that whenever spring comes, when flowers are in full bloom and birds are singing and flowers are fragrant, on a sunny day, we take our children hiking. Bathed in the breath of spring, groping among the trees in Shan Ye, getting in close contact with the grass, enjoying the fresh and natural scenery and feeling the taste of spring. Every winter when it snows, the whole campus is covered with thick snow. At this time, we seem to be back to childhood, leading our classmates to make snowmen and have snowball fights on campus. We are happy, innocent and full of interest, completely forgetting the hardships and troubles of life. In this way, the three of us are not only colleagues at work, but also good friends who have the same feelings in life. That carefree and comfortable life brought us warmth and comfort, and it was also a sincere friendship that never wavered. A year later, your uncle Shen transferred to the new school to teach, while your uncle Chen and I stayed at school. From then on, our "threesome" was just a "two-person turn".

? Just then, another half year of spring passed, and your mother came into my life and came to my side. Since then, my life has entered another world.

? Maybe it was at this time that God arranged for me to meet my mother and get to know her, and then you were born in the future. I think this is the magic and beauty of fate, unpredictable yearning and expectation! (To be continued)

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