In the book "Traveling separately", Tao described the different experiences of 13 trips. She shared with us the cultural landscapes of different countries, and how to face feelings, face herself and find answers during these thirteen trips.
"In our life, waiting is always more than expectation. Waiting without expectation is like a wilderness without lights." "
Italy, London, North Germany, Ulaanbaatar, Kenya, India, Helsinki, Melbourne, Singapore, Texas, Japan, Israel or Milan, where it ended, never start again.
The author of this book, Tao, is a southern woman, writer, translator and photographer. In her photography, it is the truest restoration of things. In her works, this is the most delicate expression of emotion. In her official WeChat account, there are no successful studies, no chicken soup, no hot spots and no advertisements. Many people envy her. She can combine work and life perfectly, travel around the world, and record many touching scenery and stories with unique photography and fresh and restrained words. In "Traveling Alone", different countries, different cities and different moods under different landscapes, her words can always calm you down in anxiety.
"If the next time I see you, I find that I am still indifferent, you should remember that I am not necessarily better than others, but I pretend to be more thorough than others. And your injury is not as deep and painful as you think. "
Although this book describes thirteen trips, every chapter is interspersed with all things related to M, which may be the city where I have lived or traveled together, or the place where M has always wanted to go.
"I came to your city and walked the way you came. Imagine how lonely you are without me. Holding the photos you gave us, familiar streets, but without your photos, we can't go back to that day "-Eason Chan's Long Time No See"
"The ending is always hidden in aimless speculation and sadness that gets out of control day by day."
I still remember that trip on 20 15, and a high-speed rail ticket sent me to Xiamen. Why choose the city of Xiamen? Not because everyone regards it as synonymous with literature and art, but because I told the conductor: I want to buy a ticket with the fastest departure and unlimited destination. It was already 10: 30 in the evening when I arrived at the hotel. After putting down my luggage, I went to the seaside across the street, found a stone and sat down, staring at the lights on the opposite island. Couples walked behind me from time to time holding hands and laughing.
I couldn't stand the indifference and silence of two people under the same roof anymore, so I ran away. All the feelings have reached such an awkward point that it is impossible to persist. None of us can pretend to be so affectionate for the so-called companionship. That once warm home is the most torturous cage for me now. At this moment when I came to Xiamen, I felt that the burden was put down. I can finally stay in my room in a daze and go out for a walk with my own mood, without thinking about whether the space for two people will be embarrassing. That night, the sea breeze in Xiamen and the tatami in the hotel finally kept me awake.
When I decided to part, it wasn't because I didn't love you anymore, but because I knew that the two of us had separated in their own directions on the original track. Actually, this is not a bad thing. The love story of the adult world ends with a hysterical breakup and a calm handshake. All love and parting happen naturally, and we can't control and change them. The only thing to do is to let nature take its course.
I recall the memories related to you at that time in every city, and then follow the previous steps and embark on the road when I came again. This kind of memory seems a bit melodramatic, but not regretting is the best respect for this relationship.
Traveling is not for me to find answers. Because the answers are not far away, they are all in my own place. I just need to jump out of my cage and go to another place to calm myself down and seek answers. In this strange environment, I will talk to myself more easily. For me, every relationship, every journey, has its meaning, and we find ourselves in this process. In "Traveling separately", Tao gave himself an answer with thirteen trips. In this long journey, we found ourselves and found love. May you and I live up to all the affection we paid at the beginning.
"You know, in love, there is no good or bad, there is no right or wrong. Because the loved one can always get rid of moral judgment in the hearts of those who love him. I don't hate you, but I'm beginning to want to forget you. "