Perhaps this is the helplessness of life. The cruel reality always makes people feel unspeakable anxiety and bitterness. When grandma is tortured by illness and the pain is unbearable, she will say to herself, "Why don't you die?" Has the prince forgotten me? "God knows, how I wish my grandmother was the one forgotten by Ye Yan, so that we can spend more time with you.
Grandma's gone! Ended in vain. At this point in her life, grandma gave her love and kindness to all the people around her. She explained this life with strength: despite the pain, she enjoyed the affection of her loved ones. Although life is poor, there is warmth, love and happiness when she is here.
? I miss my grandmother who came from the Republic of China to wrap her feet. Her life was ordinary and great. I am hardworking, kind, warm-hearted and reasonable. But her life is rough. She lost her father in childhood, her husband in middle age and her daughter in old age. Every blow is unbearable for her life. This kind of grief is hard to express in any words.
Grandma's surname is Ma, and her first name is Han Lan. She is from Jianzha Village, Weishan County, and was born in 1925. At the age of three, he experienced the death of his father and the departure of his mother, and then left home to live with his aunt and uncle. Children who lack fatherly love and maternal love will always be sensible early. What's more, grandma's life made her very independent since she was a child, and she didn't leave her laundry, cooking and farm work until she grew up, got married and had children. Throughout his life, it is a life of hard work.
? She is just an ordinary woman. She married an ordinary man, my grandfather, and started her life in Hou's home in that war-torn era. I thought marriage could have a support. Who knows, my grandfather died before I was fifty, leaving my grandmother alone and six children, big and small. Some are just married and have children, and some are 10 years old or younger.
I am often amazed at her strong self-esteem.
Grandma, who is more than one meter five, has a three-inch golden lotus and a figure of 100 kilograms. Aren't you tired? She is thin, so she raises six children by herself. Not bitter? These questions often haunt my mind. What makes her so full of fighting spirit? I think it should be a kind of love, a kind of belief and an attitude towards life! After all, this big family depends on her to dress and eat.
Listen to my mother, since I can remember, my grandmother's figure has been busy and never stopped. Even if I wash clothes and cook in cold water and catch fish and shrimp in a lake under the ice, it's just to keep my six children from starving and freezing, so I'm alone, going through the storm and trying to run this family.
A few years ago, my mother died because of illness and treatment. In the months before her death, grandma lived with her mother, and she didn't move back to her uncle's house until her mother was ill and hospitalized. But as I thought, this farewell is a lifetime, and mother and daughter will never see each other again. White-haired people send black-haired people, and God doesn't care about such a strong and kind old lady with little feet!
We are worried that mother's departure will cause a fatal blow to grandma, so we should speak with one voice, and everyone should keep it from grandma and not tell her. However, my 90-year-old grandmother still found clues from the clues. Knowing that everyone was hiding something from her, she stopped asking. Even during the Chinese New Year holiday, she never asked once, "Eldest daughter, why don't you come to see me?" . It's just that every time I go to see her, grandma always holds my hand and tears silently! The pain of losing her daughter is undoubtedly a heavy blow to grandma's life. Why can anyone feel her sad heart ... Since then, grandma has been very busy, and she has to do what she can. Although it was not as neat as before, it persisted. I think being busy may dilute her inner sadness.
? My grandmother was nameless and unemployed all her life, and no one was in debt; Don't be greedy all your life, don't be angry all your life, and don't make enemies with one person; Although I don't know a word all my life, I can always tell a lot about being a man and doing things. I worked hard all my life without reading a book, and it became a big book.
? In my world, my father is gone, my mother is gone, and my grandmother who loves me is gone!
? Although birth and death are the laws of this world, people are gone, and even if you want to see each other again in this life, it is a luxury. My second aunt often said that it is better to be separated by a layer of wood than by a thousand miles. This is the scene now. On the day of grandma's funeral, my second aunt's heartbreaking cry kept echoing in my mind: "When can I see my mother again?" . I also want to ask the world, "can you give me a chance to see my grandmother again? She loves me and loves me."
It is said that the dead are gone, and the living, living well and loving well, is the best comfort for her.
? Dear grandma, thank you for your love for our big family. Love can be passed down, so can quality and style. We are learning from your down-to-earth, hard work, courage, strength and kindness, as well as your wholehearted dedication. What we can do is to pass on this love, because we are all children brought up by grandma's love.
? Grandma, my dear grandma, from now on, we are separated by Yin and Yang and will never meet again. If there is an afterlife, I will love you, care for you and protect your life.
? Dear grandma, there is no suffering, no pain, no trouble and sadness in heaven! Only love and warmth. I wish you all the best in heaven!
Sister Xiuzhi wrote it in the early morning of May 4th, 2022.