I have little pursuit of material things, and there seems to be a voice telling myself in my heart: "It is wrong to pursue material things, and it is not good for people to be too material." I hypnotize myself from time to time. I think this idea is very good. I don't think I worship money. I think those who pursue luxury goods are too materialistic, and excellent people don't look outside. But think about it, am I really right? It is not good to only pursue material things, but it is really good to give up the pursuit of material things at a young age and let the youth who should have struggled stay in a comfortable and comfortable environment. When I am old, I will look back at my life. I have no desire and no desire, and I live a lifeless life. Won't I regret it? It is precisely because of the lack of desire for material things that it has created its own stagnation. Don't want to struggle, work and life muddle along, "casually" has become my mantra. I am so numb that I have no desire for material money. What a terrible thing! People should let go of their desire for money itself, but money also means: security, rights, personal charm and personal value. I let go of my desire for money, but more importantly, I also let go of the value behind money. These are treasures of price. In fact, there is nothing wrong with pursuing material and money. As long as you are not enslaved by material and money, you can get the personal value behind it through the pursuit of material, and money is just a bonus. So, try to get out of your comfort zone and bravely pursue material money. You deserve better.
No desire to choose comfort, muddle along, no higher pursuit, until you get a salary below 4000 yuan. It seems that I despise fame and fortune. In fact, I just don't want to make progress, avoid difficulties and avoid the pain of change. I hid in the comfort zone and thought I was comfortable. Actually the comfort zone is not comfortable. In the comfort zone, there are no waves in our hearts and we are no longer interested in anything. People are too lazy to think, feel excited, moved, moved. Actually, I just paralyzed myself in the comfort zone. Deep down, I am still afraid of inferiority and anxiety. I am afraid of accusations and criticisms from others. What I'm afraid of is my inner remorse and helplessness because I didn't do something well ... don't be the child hiding in the comfort zone. Know what you are afraid of, and the more you are afraid, the more you have to do it. If you run away, you will always be a coward in these aspects and live under inferiority.
What do I like? I thought I liked positive things like justice, kindness, intelligence and so on, as if I needed to pursue them all my life. But sometimes when you think about it, these are a little ambitious or space spirit. After all, people should be practical and grounded. There are few saints in the world. We are all ordinary people. So what do I really like?
I think my first reaction at the moment is writing, and my numb life has turned me into a walking corpse. But when I am writing, my heart is one after another, sometimes quiet, sometimes excited, sometimes moved by sadness ... It seems that when I am writing, my heart begins to beat and come alive, and then my life comes alive. I think I like writing. Writing can express my feelings, express my thoughts, and even be a way for me to know myself. Writing makes me look forward to the future.
I like fitness, too. At first I just wanted to keep fit and have a good mental state. But with the persistence of fitness, I gradually fell in love with fitness, and also realized the benefits of fitness: the tired and heavy body gradually became lighter, and the nervous and depressed brain was relaxed. I'm getting better physically and mentally. I feel the sunshine and temperature in my cold heart, and I realize that new life is rising quietly. I like fitness, an active lifestyle. Fitness makes me healthy and happy.
How should feelings be managed? I used to ask blindly. I only realized the happiness of being loved, and I chose to give up if I was not satisfied. I have never felt the happiness of truly loving someone. I don't think I've ever waited for a vigorous love I want, precisely because I haven't paid it seriously. This time, learn to love someone, don't just be the one who asks for it, don't be willful, learn to understand, tolerate and give, and hope to love yourself vigorously and seriously! Let yourself love without regrets. I think this is what I want, the future I want, and this feeling is what I want.
I also like traveling, watching beautiful scenery, watching other people's exquisite makeup and elegant long skirts, watching the neat and clean results after storage, enjoying the occasional small changes in my life, people who speak fluent English, people who speak Kan Kan dialect, and the way all dream catchers work hard for their dreams ... I am very excited to see the confidence and brilliance revealed in other people's eyes. These are all things I like, and that's why I like them. Change requires new habits to replace the old ones. The formation of a new good habit is painful, but the result is satisfactory. Life in a backwater is desperate, and only change can make our life alive.
In this marathon of my life, I fell down at the starting line. Although I started a little later than most people, it doesn't matter. I'm still on the road, life is so long. Who says I can't do it in the future? Who says I can't reach the finish line? Everyone's life trajectory is different, with bitterness and sweetness. Why not bitter before sweet? Don't feel inferior, don't doubt yourself, don't forget your beliefs, always remind yourself to believe and uphold these old sayings: self-discipline, persistence, kindness and courage …