I accidentally turned over the blue book, and there were many torn pages in it. Now the book is thinner, it should have been thicker. At least one third of this book has been torn up. Qian Furen stroked the book and calmly detailed the story inside.
Qian Furen's full name is Qian. I heard that it was the day when she was born, and a plum tree grew at home. But in the twelfth lunar month, her father went up the hill and slipped down the hill, and her widowed mother had to support three children by herself. Qian Furen suffered a lot when he was a child. Finally, when she was thirteen years old, Qian packed her bags and went to the junior high school in the county alone. The money of "Seeds of Love" fell in love with a strong young PE teacher. At that time, money was thin and weak, so she couldn't finish the race in the stipulated time. A kind PE teacher always follows her and encourages her. The teacher also patiently taught her sports in class. Qian dreamed that the teacher held her hand and spoke to her gently. Her heart thumped like a deer, her yellow and pale face turned red, and she often clucked in the middle of the night.
Speaking of which, Qian Furen touched her hot face and looked at me trembling. She was relieved, subconsciously loosened the pleated sleeves and continued to recall.
There are many classes to learn in junior high school, and math teachers often occupy physical education class unreasonably. Money can't help it. She is a good student and has never thought of skipping classes. She listened attentively to the bell after class, then suddenly pulled out a stool and ran to the playground to watch the PE teacher play basketball. Money looks left and right, up and down, crowded in front of the tall boys watching basketball. When she was in a hurry, she saw Mr. Tan wearing a white vest, showing strong arms and muscles. What is the teacher's name? Qian Furen didn't mention it.
"What happened later?"
"Well, this is the only memorial related to him." Qian Furen naturally showed me the blue book with yellow paper. I opened the thin, almost transparent book and saw only a few lines on the first page: Teacher Tan, time flies. I am going to graduate soon. I am afraid that you will forget me and won't leave you. Here is a vigorous couplet: study hard, plum.
"Oh, this is from Teacher Tan." I said with a smile.
Qian Furen nodded happily.
With graduation approaching, Qian's heart is getting more and more anxious. She couldn't sleep every night and didn't review well, so she wrote a "love letter" in the study room. Sometimes just a few words, sometimes thousands of words. She always clumsily covers her blue book with her right hand and left hand, and carefully writes beautiful fonts with her right hand. Maybe the trace is too obvious. When the head teacher checked, she saw the little tricks of money at a glance. The teacher thought she was reading a two-dimensional romance novel outside school, so she went up to her and took the book away with a brush. "Money's face also changed.
The gloomy class teacher invited the parents. As a punishment, Qian, who was standing in the corridor, looked at the room from the window and heard the class teacher retelling the contents of the "love letter" to his mother in anger. Her mother's face turned black and white. Qian Meixin concluded that the head teacher must have been smearing her. Sure enough, as soon as her mother left the office, she picked up a broom and hit the money. Qian Meixin escaped to the playground unconsciously. She didn't want Mr. Tan to see her embarrassment, but at this time, she ran to Mr. Tan who was pushing a bicycle home from work and begged, "Miss Tan, let me go with you and go home with you. I don't want to be with my mother. "
Teacher Tan frowned. Unknown so, when she saw chasing her in the distance, Teacher Tan smiled and encouraged her. "Say something stupid. What can I do to make your mother understand? Making mistakes is a big deal, son. Your mother will forgive you. The teacher has something to do, so I'll go first. "
The money standing in the same place loosened Mr. Tan's bicycle seat. When Teacher Tan left, her head became empty and her ears could not hear anything. She smiled foolishly, and Ma Qian thought the child was lost.
From that day on, Qian never went to school again. 16-year-old money went to work in Anhui with luggage. For five years, she worked as a dishwasher, nanny, cleaner and porter, and collected waste products. She kept the money she had saved and only took out part of it as rent for the basement. At this time, Qian, wearing a white skirt and ponytail, has grown into a slim girl. She is very young and beautiful.
The day after her birthday, she went into an electronics factory, where she got food and shelter. She works in three shifts: morning, middle and evening. Money simply came to the electronics factory with the only quilt she brought from home. To her surprise, she met Miss Tan, whom she had been missing for a long time. He is wearing blue overalls and holding a ceramic jar. His face was haggard and his beard was ignored. He passed by the money waiting in line for cooking. Qian knew that his voice was low, so he screamed loudly: "Teacher Tan!" Teacher Tan has forgotten her and stood there waiting for a while. Qian hurried over to say her name and told the story of that year. Teacher Tan finally remembered and praised her for being much more beautiful now. The two chatted happily. Qian couldn't help asking, "Teacher, why are you here?"
"You're welcome," Mr. Tan smiled shyly. "I was drunk and hit my colleague, and I was expelled from school."
Qian immediately showed sympathetic eyes, and Teacher Tan waved. "Nothing, anyway, my home is here and I'm hungry."
"Plum, why did you drop out of school?"
Qian's face turned red again. She faltered: "At that time, there was no money at home."
Teacher Tan patted her on the shoulder. "It's okay. You can make money now. You go to school to make money in the future. All the same. "
During her work, Teacher Tan often went to see her, and Qian also asked him for experience. Teacher Tan, who is about 30 years old, is in high spirits. Speaking of it, she often mentions her sideline as a fitness instructor to Qian. With his strong body, he attracted many people who came to sign up, and Mr. Tan received a lot of extra money. On weekends, Mr. Tan will invite money to his home on the grounds that he can't cook. Money always cleans the teacher's house, and he also realizes that there is no one at home. Qian feels that the teacher is lonely and wants to spend more time with the teacher. She comes early every week. Teacher Tan saw that money was waiting for him outside the door every time, so she did not hesitate to give her the key to her house and let her sit upstairs first, but money could never sit still. When Mr. Tan is happy, he will take money to do sports together, which is what money expects most. It is also from this time that Mr. Tan became more interested in money, which is introverted on the surface but burning with a fiery heart inside.
Since I met Teacher Tan, Qian started writing her blue book again. One day, Mr. Tan came back early and happened to see Qian's leather book "Violet Wind". He smiled and seemed interested in this thick book. He wanted to have a look, but the money was flushed, his heart thumped, his nails were digging on the surface of the blue book, he bowed his head unconsciously, and his eyes were anxiously hiding in the bangs, like a child who had done something wrong. Now, Mr. Tan is more interested in shy money than that thick book. After all, Teacher Tan has never read the blue book. He just joked, "Plum, you really look like a ripe plum."
What makes money unforgettable is that on that day, Teacher Tan suddenly got drunk and shouted dirty words. Qian Meixin finally stuffed him into a taxi. He also shouted, "Why did you say that I cheated money and that I was a heartless fitness instructor? I didn't steal or rob. " Qian didn't know that one of his students had dislocated his leg. Parents came to make trouble and smashed his fitness classroom. Teachers must also pay students' medical expenses, operation fees, mental damage compensation, etc. Qian listened to his nagging, carefully laid the sheets for him, got up and went to the kitchen to pour water for the teacher. Teacher Tan suddenly grabbed her hand and alcohol sprayed on her red face. He looked at her with vague eyes. "
Money got a little scared and got up subconsciously. Teacher Tan is a little disappointed. "You don't like me. People who can't find a job dislike me. People who find jobs also dislike me. Even my parents abandoned me after I was born and threw me away. Am I really so annoying? "
Seeing the tears in the corner of Miss Tan's eyes, Qian was distressed. Her deep admiration was released with the brilliance of motherhood. She stayed, sat quietly on the bed, turned off the light, and Miss Tan pressed her with alcohol.
"After that day, he seemed to forget about that night and still invited me to his house for dinner every weekend. I thought it would be fine until one day his wife came to see him ... "
Teacher Tan's wife, very fat, speaks Northeastern dialect, with a cigarette in her mouth, and walks around domineering, looking for him with a luggage. Before that, Qian had never heard the teacher mention his wife who was working outside the home, and Teacher Tan was also very cold to her. In front of her, Miss Tan has no dignity at all, at least in terms of money. But his wife's father in his hometown had a stroke and fell out of bed, so he needed to raise money for surgery. Teacher Tan had to pack up at home and get ready to go home. Money stood beside him silently. Teacher Tan kept her head down to pick things up and didn't lift them. Until the gate of the railway station, Teacher Tan's wife went to buy water to drink. Teacher Tan asked her in a low voice, "Plum, would you like to come with me?" Money is very confusing. The teacher went back to his hometown to see his father-in-law. What does he take me for? He immediately asked, "Where are you going?"
"You can go wherever you want."
"But what about your wife?"
"Don't worry about her." Teacher Tan looked at his wife who was still buying water in the supermarket and gave her a white look.
Money is in full bloom and surging, and the teacher wants me to elope with him. She clung to the skirt horn and wanted to nod, but reason told her that Teacher Tan's father-in-law was still ill in bed and needed to raise money for surgery. She is kind, she can't make such a choice. After a long struggle, Qian looked up and said, "Teacher, will you go back to treat my father-in-law first and then come back to me?" I will wait for you here. "Qian looked at Teacher Tan anxiously. Teacher Tan frequently looked at his wife to buy water in the supermarket, and her eyes were shining.
Teacher Tan had no time to speak and said, "Yi Song, it's time to go!" Brought them both back to reality.
Teacher Tan was a little disappointed at that time, but when he left, he left the room key to Qian, saying that he would come back and let Qian live in peace. Mrs. Qian recalled two things she regretted: one was that she didn't promise to go with the teacher, and the other was that she wasn't pregnant with the teacher's child.
Qian Furen is always alone, never married, never pregnant and having children. She was fascinated. After Miss Tan left, she stayed in Anhui for another nine years. Unfortunately, Teacher Tan never came back. At this point, Qian Furen's blue book used as a memory has been written on every page. Words mixed with resentment, sweetness, doubt and expectation make Qian Furen look more and more broken. This man failed me, this annoying man ... Qian Furen tore up the blue book page by page in despair, and then took it to the candlestick and burned it page by page. The smoke in the room made Qian Furen's eyes water. The blue book is not available yet.
Qian Furen burned from the back to the front, so the Blue Book still retains the chapter of Qian Furen's junior high school. I turned over the blue book and Qian Furen sighed. She was very sad at the thought that Miss Tan would never come back. That day, she took out all the money in the bank for a trip to release her depressed mood. She went to a place to rest and stayed there to work when she had no money. When she was rich, she set off again. When she was shopping, she looked for someone absently. She looked left and right, up and down, and squeezed into the bustling crowd. She is in a hurry. She hoped to see the man wearing a white vest, showing solid arms and muscles, but there was no figure she was most familiar with except the man who hurried by.
"Will you feel sorry?"
"There must be regrets, but I don't regret it. I am old now, and my memory is getting worse and worse. Just have an idea in your heart. " Qian Furen choked up. She took out a handkerchief to wipe her tears, but her mouth was still smiling.
Thin snowflakes floated silently in the air, gently falling on Qian Furen's gray hair. Mrs. Qian shivered, stood up on crutches, dried the melted snow on the blue book, held it carefully in her arms, and slowly walked into the dark room of the nursing home. I know she's going to sleep again.
Not all love can "suddenly look back, but that person is in the dim light", and not all people can love this man all their lives like Qian Furen. Since we can't help each other and forget each other in the rivers and lakes, it is also a kind of happiness to keep an idea in our hearts and always remember it.