Long time no see, I didn't expect this situation now.
"Xiao Chun, are you there?" She didn't look back, just looked at the fallen leaves in her hands, and the words that couldn't be lighter seemed to be blown away by the wind, leaving no trace.
"Viagra ..." I thought about it, but I still didn't say anything. I hugged her gently behind my back. Even that sentence, are you okay? I can't bear to ask, I'm afraid her feelings and falling tears will hit my heart.
I held her as long as she stood until it was dark, and she fell asleep again, holding her light body. I'm afraid I'll touch her wound if I hold it too hard, and I'm afraid I can't hold it if I hold it too lightly.
Cover her with the quilt and I will close the door gently. I can't help shivering at the thought of her thin face.
At the end of the corridor, I couldn't help being angry. I lit a cigarette until it was smashed on the ashtray on the trash can, and my heart calmed down a little.
All this stems from her facing the wind and fallen leaves outside the window, but just turning her back on me and saying things that made me feel extremely angry.
Still won't take off your strong disguise in front of me? Are you still curled up in your rose thorns like a hedgehog?
At least, she is willing to tell me.
I also want to hear it.
I held her, feeling my voice getting choked up and my body getting colder and colder. I can only hold her tightly, but I still can't smooth her turbulent emotions and her wrinkled heart.
As if the previous wanton and free and easy, gone forever. For a quarter of an hour, I felt my world collapsed. This girl, who has been regarded as a standard by me for more than twenty years in my life, is disappointed.
My inner gloom, I miss Conan the destroyer, I want to melt away. Fortunately, a cigarette and what little reason I have left saved me.
Days pass like running water, taking away all the old things, but not the illusion of love, childhood dreams, lovely people's smiles and brows. I have always felt that when God carved Ye Wei, he didn't make a careless, tall figure and beautiful face, but salt can be sweet.
/kloc-When I was 0/8 years old, I was sure I liked her.
I like the way she is high-spirited and reckless. When I was young, I was introverted and she was enthusiastic.
When you are angry, you hang it around your neck. "Xiao Chun is my cover. If you want to bully him, ask me first! " .
I like her wanton publicity. She obviously had her period, and she put her feet on my desk in a skirt and looked down at me. "Go, accompany grandpa to the Internet cafe!"
I am a girl, but I am always overbearing and protecting me. At that time, I obviously hated the girl who formed a clique, but I just pretended to be weak and enjoyed her protection.
Ye Wei is a brave, bold and cool girl. Because she always takes the fall for others, her classmates and friends call her brother Wei.
There is nothing to say that I like it. Your preferences will change with her unconsciously. Unconsciously, I didn't even understand my behavior. Unconsciously degenerate, hateful is later know.
When I was three years old, she moved across from my house, when she was four years old. She said she was one year older than me, but in fact we were only three months apart, a few years earlier than her and a few years later than me. Mom asked me to call her sister.
Ye Wei's parents and mine are both executives of the enterprise. Because we often work overtime, the two families discuss taking care of us in shifts.
Xiaoyewei and Xiaochunxiao are often together. We go to school together, leave school together, eat together and sleep in the same bed. At that time, I was very simple and always felt that we were like brother and sister.
Because my mother is a young woman with literary style, she named me. In late spring, I was often bullied by my classmates at school. I got used to it after listening to it. But she's not used to it. She often fights with other students and is often punished by the teacher. I often look at her outside the classroom and laugh at her. How stupid she is.
It's so cute. She stands as punishment, but my heart is full of joy. Because there is such a person who will fight with others for a little thing about you. It's just that you don't know much about feelings, and you only know a little about feelings before you know them.
The first time I was nervous about her was in my third year of high school.
When the college entrance examination approached, we went home to review together, and a love letter fell out of her schoolbag. This often happens in class. Although the school explicitly prohibits it, there are still many people stepping on high-voltage lines.
I glanced at the moment she opened the love letter. The person who wrote it is the monitor of our class, a very good boy. My heart suddenly became tense and I stole a look at her. What was my reaction?
Almost, at that tense moment, I confirmed one thing, that is, I like her. Looking at her, it doesn't matter to fold the letter. She wrote a few big characters at the back of the folded letter.
"I don't like it, I don't associate." I fell down with a bang in my throat. To her relief, she refused. What worries me is that she doesn't like all the boys I agree with, so what does he like? Could it be me?
I'm nervous because I care. Because it's too important to ask.
From that day on, liking her became my loneliest worry. I was happy for her and worried about her.
What's more, I still want to get the same score as her and go to the same university. I thought so, and I did it.
I dare not confess, because I care about this relationship. Once some things spread, they can't stop. Try less. I'm afraid I'm not her dish, but this unrequited love is getting stronger and stronger. When I want to say it, this beauty is also facing an end.
There is a road that you and I will take, which is a detour when we are young and frivolous.
If I had been brave, wouldn't I have to take so many detours in the future?
This wonderful life ended when she met a boy named Bai Chen in the fraternity when we were sophomore. Looking back now, I only feel that the ugly soul is packed in a beautiful box, no matter how beautiful it is, its heart is dirty.
Bai Chen, the president of junior student union, is very handsome. At school, there are a group of fans because of their looks and the identity of the principal. He didn't pick anyone but Ye Wei.
A week after the sorority, he was downstairs in the girls' dormitory, holding a bunch of roses and playing the guitar, and made a confession.
I stood on the balcony on the third floor and watched her come out of the balcony on the second floor. I have a panoramic view of all her expressions, first shocked, then meditated, and then nodded.
That night, my heart was confused and weak. I seem to hear something breaking in my body. I repeat it over and over again, as long as she is happy. But in the end, I couldn't help crying.
I curled up in the quilt, slept sideways on the bed, told our past, shed tears shamelessly on the pillow, and stayed awake all night.
At that moment, I felt that there was a tsunami in your heart, quietly and without letting anyone know.
Gradually, she stopped eating, exercising and walking with me. Never do anything together again. I want to pick up the phone and call her, forcing myself to put down the phone again and again.
One week, I didn't see her, went to her usual place, and didn't see her either.
The person who has a secret crush always wants to be close to the crazy frustration, and the person who wants to see it wants to be crazy. When you are caught off guard, they come to you mercilessly.
When I came out of the student union building, I saw a sentence that popped up in my mind when Bai Chen took her hand and walked side by side on campus.
Pay attention to a blue sky, swim in endless mood, as if the past and the future, and that nothingness, I can't go anywhere.
Wise men don't fall in love, fools are trapped by love.
How I wish I were a warrior who knows martial arts. I have all my five senses blocked, so I can't hear anything outside. I want to think that I am a man wearing a condom, locked in my own world.
I study crazily, enrich myself crazily, and seize everything that can make me strong. Looking through her circle of friends from time to time, I saw a photo of her and Bai Chen, smiling so brightly. I think she is doing well.
I feel that I have gradually become her. Boxing, rock climbing, swimming, mountaineering, skiing, equestrian, etc. I actively train and participate in almost all the sports you can imagine.
Although I have a full schedule, I always meet them when I go home for dinner with my mother on holiday. We seem to say hello, but we are not as familiar as before. Although I pretend I don't care, in front of the person I like, I look more and more like shattered glass.
When I hear something that is obviously irrelevant, I will turn around in my mind and think of her.
Time flies and college life flies by. The name Hunchunxiao is no longer rejected because of femininity. In the past four years, what I have heard most is that Hunchunxiao of the finance department not only took a double degree, but also took a series of questions with almost perfect marks.
Once the most popular person in the school forum, I refused the invitation of the school student union because I didn't want to have any intersection with Bai Chen. I refused all the confessions because I didn't want to wait for her to come back.
In short, the reason for all this is that I have been secretly paying attention to her, and I am still avoiding her, trying to separate her from my mind. I can control everything. However, this is the only thing I can't control, but it is getting worse and worse.
The most ridiculous thing I like her to do is to go to the temple to worship Buddha and cross me out of the world of mortals. I can't help laughing at myself when I think about it. It is better to ask for Buddha than to ask for yourself.
Although it happens every New Year, I have been sitting together and setting off fireworks for two years, and every time I was scolded by Bai Chen, my beauty was ruined, and I gradually got used to it. Although two people are good friends, there are no secrets to keep from each other.
I like her most seriously 10 years, from 18 to 28 years old. I think, go and meet her this year.
Now that I have decided to meet her, I am a person who dares to act at once. I will arrange my work and put the agenda on the table. That eager heart is like being forced to send a dose of cardiotonic, drumming and jumping.
I really love this girl. After all these years, I remember that she is still 18.
You can blush and beat your heart for her.
When I got home, my mother cooked a table of dishes. In the chattering mouth, it is still a commonplace topic.
"Don't find me a wife, how old are you?"
"Mom, you said this again, and you brought it back ..."
"You always perfunctory me, you smelly boy!"
"I haven't met the girl I like yet!"
"Old leaves home that wench, don't you like it? She is not married either. "
"Ye Wei has a boyfriend, mom, don't talk nonsense."
"No, you mean a man named Bai Chen?"
"Mom, how do you know?"
………
I heard my mother sigh and lament. Although it was a few words, I was struck by lightning. It turned out that she was not happy during the years when I was not with her.
Knowing that she was hospitalized in a car accident, I ran several traffic lights. On the way, I thought, what have I been doing all these years? I slapped myself hard.
Two torn ribs, ruptured parenchymal organs, bleeding, and concussion. A spleen was removed due to severe splenic bleeding.
Will she tremble with fear alone in the cold operating room?
…
I dare not think much, just want to see her soon.
I ran crying. 40 minutes away, 10 minutes away.
I was in the hospital ward, and when I smelled the disinfectant on Ye Wei, my tears fell on my clothes.
She didn't cry, but I did.
Just because she doesn't smell like my favorite osmanthus fragrance.
I am very distressed ...
I don't want to say too much about Bai Chen. I am jealous of Ye Wei because of him.
I only know that no matter how high your cultivation and realm are, you are vulnerable to love. For the first time, I knew I would be petty.
When Bai Chen first went to college, I always thought he was very good to Ye Wei.
It's just that I think
Good things in the world are not firm, colorful clouds are easy to disperse, and glass is fragile.
After graduating from college, Ye Wei chose to break up with Bai Chen because of various disagreements.
Bai Chen's family conditions are not very good. Although she looks good, she also shows inferiority. Ye Wei's parents helped him find a job in a foreign company because of his relationship with Ye Wei.
Maybe society, the big dye vat, dyed him black and white.
He began to think that people with connections can reach the sky in one step, demanding higher positions and better conditions again and again. Ye Wei will try his best to satisfy him. After all, I used to be boyfriend and girlfriend.
In the second year of work, Bai Chen wanted to take the position of director, and her ability was not enough to match her ambition and desire. Forgive me for not saying a good word to him. Describing him so calmly, I already feel that I am saving his face in all aspects.
Man's desire is like a greedy wolf, which can never be satisfied.
Ye Wei's father is the deputy director of Bai Chen Company, so he asked Ye Wei to help him again.
When the company didn't accept interns, it went in through relationships.
When I was an intern, I turned him into a full member through connections.
When I became a full-time employee, I was appointed as the promotion team leader.
The team leader is tired of work, and he wants the director …
Ye Wei didn't promise this time, and wanted him to prove himself through strength. But he repeatedly stopped Ye Wei on his way to and from work. Do some dirty tricks and puncture the tire.
After all, everyone has a bottom line.
Ye Wei's car was punctured again, and she left the parking lot angrily. Bai Chen dragged her to make noise on the road.
"Ye Wei, if you don't help me, I will run to the middle of the road and let the car kill me!"
He looks like a biting dog. When a car driver got drunk and ran into them, his reaction was not to dodge.
He pulled Ye Wei in front of her, and the car directly hit them. Ye Wei entered the ICU. Bai Chen was only scratched, his face landed, his face was slightly disfigured, and his arm was broken. Compared with Ye Wei's injury, I think his injury couldn't be lighter.
Ye Wei stayed in the intensive care unit for a week before coming out. I heard from my mother that when I went to see her, she had been lying in the hospital for nearly three months.
Although I can walk and eat, I always feel a little listless.
Ye Wei stayed in the hospital for three months and went home for a year. I have been working at my parents' house during the time when she was at home recovering from illness.
Take her to the sun and do light exercise every day, just like when we were young. Seeing her getting better and laughing day by day, I feel that my world has hope.
One day I went to her house to cook for her, and she fell asleep on the sofa. Curiosity made me look at her computer screen.
I found that she was watching Weibo a few years ago, and she especially loved Bai Chen. That Weibo is written like this. In fact, you don't seem to have done anything for me. You have an empty mouth that loves me, and you have done everything that frightens me.
Bai Chen answered her, Ye Wei, it's my fault. I shouldn't have lied to you. Xiao Chun never said that he didn't like you.
It's my fault that Ye Wei replied to Bai Chen. From the beginning, I trusted you and hurt the people I care about most. Please go and never see you again.
I am the person she cares about most. I looked at the specific time. It turned out that it was time for me to pretend that I didn't care about anything and hide myself in the shell.
So she told me everything. Nevertheless, she suffered great injustice.
It turned out that my handling was not good enough, which made her feel that I didn't care about her.
Turns out she likes me, too.
She woke up when she smelled rice. I pretended not to see her computer. As usual.
After dinner, she said she wanted to go to Changbai Mountain to see the snow-covered world, as if it had never been polluted. Beautiful ice sculptures are like fairy tales in dreams.
I booked her a plane ticket to Changbai Mountain and went to her house to pack her two suitcases with her thickest clothes. I don't think it's enough. She can't carry it alone. Although she claims to be a woman, she is still a girl who needs to be hurt.
Later, I followed her on the plane.
Later, we traveled together.
On this day, she was beside Erhai Lake in Dali. I don't have time to accompany her in go to dali because I am away on business.
"Xiao Chun, it's very comfortable by Erhai Lake." She sent me a WeChat.
"Viagra, I will spend the rest of my life traveling with you. Can we live together? " I finally got up the courage to say this sentence.
Still too cowardly, in the form of words.
I was waiting for her reply for a few seconds, watching her type, and I didn't know where to put my hands and feet, and my heart was inexplicably flustered. Although she only replied to me in one sentence, it made me ecstatic.
"Spring comes in summer and autumn is harvested in winter, so we have plenty of time."
I booked a flight to go to dali immediately, and it was dusk when I flew there. She was in the bubble basket of the hotel. I still remember that beautiful evening, when my beautiful hair fluttered with the wind and was covered with a golden halo against the sunshine.
The sunset melts gold, and the clouds merge, and the Iraqis are picturesque.
Soft hair, like a cat, softens the heart. Regardless of the crowd, I held her cheek and kissed her in her shocked eyes. I swear, this is the bravest, most impulsive, most beautiful and most touching thing I have ever done in my life.
Looking at the moon and listening to the wind, Erhai has you.
Her eyes are becoming gentle and beautiful.
Only after we got married did we know that she was pretending to sleep at noon that day, and Weibo showed it to me on purpose, giving me the courage to express my love. Unexpectedly, I kept her waiting for so long.
Thinking of this, I always mess up her hair and simply get back at her.
After all, I was framed by a little woman and fell into her trap.
However, I am happy about this.
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