Because of poor health and lack of exercise since childhood, every time I run, I will be out of breath, have a headache, feel dizzy and look pale. Some people say it's lack of oxygen, some people say it's lack of exercise, some people say it's heart and lung failure ... whatever the reason, the result is uncomfortable running.

Later, due to work reasons, I had to start running because I needed an assessment for the three-kilometer run, but whenever I think of my uncomfortable reaction after running, I will have resistance to running. I also think that even if I can't afford to run, the most important thing is that I won't feel uncomfortable ... as if yawning is contagious, once the problem of laziness spreads, life will be unhappy. Work procrastination, impatience, idleness, boredom with everything, often self-pity, and natural death.

As the days passed, I said that I resigned, but my heart was a little unwilling and gradually became anxious. I don't think I can go on like this, but the idea of running has always stayed in my mind and I haven't put it into action.

On my thirtieth birthday, I looked at this skinny guy in the mirror and suddenly thought of a sentence: I turned myself into the kind of person I hate most.

At this moment, my inner anxiety completely turned into fear. My best friends are all bad habits-complaining, being lazy, overeating and staying up late ... Although every day is a new day, they are still living in the same way, mechanically walking on the road of self-destruction. These fears are actually visible, tangible and sensible. Fear reminds me of his existence all the time.

It must change!

I said to myself: everything you want is watching from the other side of fear.

Recall some knowledge I have heard before: people are natural long-distance running animals, and genes give us the best gift. I put down all my fears of uncertainty, gave up the sense of security of "not running" and ran forward.

I still feel uncomfortable after running, but when my body is sweaty and sticky, some strange feelings arise, which is a feeling of vitality. ...

Due to lack of exercise, the time for me to run three kilometers was originally 15 minutes, and even exceeded 16 minutes when I was in a bad state. This is a failing grade.

Running also needs scientific practice. I have met many friends who have pulled ligaments and injured knees because of unscientific running ... After joint injuries, the healing is not generally slow. In order to prevent these problems, I consulted various books such as fitness, running and muscle anatomy, and determined the correct running posture before running. But even so, the performance of the three kilometers is still slow, always floating up and down at 15.

That's not good ... only by raising the three kilometers to about 14 points can we ensure that we pass the exam. I sank again, looking for the reason and the crux, but I had no clue. Until one day, I felt dizzy during anaerobic training and suddenly had an idea.

For me, long-distance running can be simply broken down into several points:

1. Warm up before running and stretch after running.

2. Keep the correct running posture.

3. Keep the rhythm of breathing.

My question is not the first point, not the second point, but the third point. I often feel breathless and tired after running for a while, which is a sign of insufficient cardiopulmonary function. For one and two, I can get it through study, but for three, I must have targeted training.

To this end, I made a training plan according to my own situation to improve cardiopulmonary function. This plan is: eight-day upgrade plan! Run twice a week, not three kilometers at a time, but 7.5 kilometers to exercise your cardiopulmonary function. This is endurance. The first three kilometers are based on the standard of 15 points, followed by persistence.

Although the plan has been made, it has never been run for that long, and I feel a little uneasy. When I was running, I remembered a principle: because people are long-distance running animals, when people run for 30 minutes, their brains will secrete "cool" dopamine. So with the expectation of dopamine in my heart, I insisted on running on the road.

15 minutes passed, and the three kilometers ended. I feel exhausted and want to stop for a walk. But there is an indomitable thought in my heart, and I will lift the pace I want to pause again and take a step forward. 20 minutes, 25 minutes, 30 minutes ... it seems no different, but it seems a little different. I'm not that tired, and it's not that hard to persist ... 35 minutes, 40 minutes, 45 minutes ... The 7.5-kilometer journey is over. I walk slowly, but my body seems to be full of strength.

Twice a week, about a week, I only ran for 8 days, and the rest of the time I just walked quietly, keeping a good diet and sleep. A month later, I felt that I was no longer afraid of running. I ran three kilometers 13 minutes for the promotion exam in April.

Doris Lessing wrote in Memoirs of Survivors: We anxiously look forward to the future and forget the present life. Do not live for the present, nor for the future. We live as if we would never die, and we die as if we had never lived.

Everyone's life is different, and everyone's anxiety is different. Every day, we experience not only anxiety but even fear. But when we know that everything we want is actually watching from the other side of the fire in fear. ...

What are we afraid of?