Author: Xue Ying XY

I'm really looking forward to writing Tian Yue's story. At the saddest time, I stayed with her in a quiet place for three days and three nights, singing and dancing every day, and the turbidity brought by emotions was all shed by sweat and tears. I can't forget the precious inner clarity and tranquility when I left her to take a taxi.

Because of her, I came into contact with dance, and because of her, I felt the joy of being so close to my true self through dance. Several times, for no reason, I was so sad that I sent some words to Tian Yue, and she replied to me with a few words or a few paragraphs of voice, which made me burst into tears. I still don't know what kind of energy attraction makes me so willing to approach her and trust her.

It is a kind of peace that is understood and fully accepted, and touches sensitive nerves. Life's respect for life makes me feel that I have found my mother's arms. She is just a woman my age, but she has a more mature heart and a rich heart. I am a layman floating in the world. I am surprised when I occasionally catch a glimpse of my inner world. She wandered, explored and indulged in her inner world all the year round, which made her what she is today.

I made an appointment for a dream interview. She took me to her new home to live with a smart man. Zen music echoed, and I sat on the ground with a few futons in my arms. There are several Buddha statues on the wall. I don't know them, but I can see compassion and joy. There is no fan and air conditioner at home, and the mountain wind sweeps it, which is refreshing and comfortable. Outside, there is a large terrace facing Wutongshan, which is foggy. There are several water lilies planted on the balcony, which are elegant and white, just as I saw when I meditated and sang, and they fit well. At the moment when I was with her, I could clearly feel my heartbeat and pulse, which was very calm and calm. ...

In my heart, she is not only a soul dancer, but also a rare close friend who can sing with my heart. I really like her and thank her very much. I think this interview must not be a process of rational thinking and recording with my brain, but a spiritual experience that I am willing to turn off my thoughts and feel with my heart.

Tian Yue said that 0-5 years old is the most carefree age in her life. Children are in a state of direct connection with ontology. Living is a complete and fearless action, with unlimited creativity, joy, freshness and curiosity. Life itself is a blessing. In her memory, she has experienced this state of life that blooms like a flower.

When we grow up and go to school, the door open to the truth will gradually close, and our personality will develop more and more soundly, and we will also live a variety of personality faces to meet the eyes and needs of others.

We are smoother, more secular, and more obedient.

Tian Yue was born in a Guangdong family. She is the eldest daughter of the whole family. She was given the hope of a boy since she was a child. When she was born, her family looked at the little girl, which made them feel a little lonely and disappointed. Nevertheless, her parents tried their best to treat and raise her fairly, and she was quite open-minded. But like many families, there is a deep-rooted thought that will still go deep into the bone marrow of the whole family.

"Grandma was disappointed to see me born?" Tian Yue asked her mother. "yes".

So Tian Yue grew up like a boy. Although the appearance is still petite and weak, but her eyes can not hide her unyielding and persistent. She wants to live stronger and better than boys in her bones. There is no reason, this has become the life creed of many people since childhood. She tries to be the pride of her family and do her best for her daughter, even if she is studying subjects that she doesn't like and doing things that are boring to her.

The blooming true flowers had to bow their heads, wrap everything up and bury it in the soil, giving birth to a more modest plant.

Until junior high school, a Chinese speech contest attracted her attention. She is not a very brave child, but she decided to accept the challenge. After signing up, she locked herself in her room, practiced every day, chewed up a paragraph, dug slowly and carefully, practiced repeatedly, ten times, one hundred times, two hundred times ... almost forgot to eat or drink, completely in a "flow".

On the day of the competition, Tian Yue, who had been intoxicated for many days, began her speech with the natural concentration when she was a child. This is a feeling of complete selflessness and self-esteem. It seems that everyone on the stage has disappeared, leaving only a dancer with language, as if every inch of her body is giving instructions. She is quite sure that she will win the game. The audience under the stage also stared at it, dumbfounded with surprise. This feeling fascinated Tian Yue so much. In the eyes of others, this is a trivial matter, but Tian Yue has a more delicate and sensitive perception than ordinary people, and is blessed with an understanding and awareness of the inner world.

? A similar feeling also appeared in another middle school chorus competition. She was chosen as the conductor and practiced again and again in her room until she felt completely integrated with the baton and walked onto the stage. There is only one voice in my heart, "I will win", forgetting the stage, the audience and everything around me, as if her mind was not started rationally, and everything was moved by her heart and her body.

It was not until more than ten years later that middle school students met Tian Yue and told her that she felt as if she were going to be electrocuted when she saw Tian Yue conducting under the stage. She still wants to know why a girl who looks very small can burst into such a powerful energy.

Tian Yue recalled that maybe at that time, she planted a seed for her life. She really experienced that when a person can live his true self and give full play to his talents, she is so happy and her sense of value will be magnified a hundred times. This seed is noble, not all visible substances in the world, but the inner world. She is convinced that she is a blessed girl, and she will embark on a journey of exploring the inner world.

After experiencing the peak of inner perception, I returned to calm again. Tian Yue's life no longer feels fresh energy, studying for exams, following the rules at two o'clock and one line, and never making mistakes. Eating old books, she doesn't have much interest in learning. Because she lives by inertia, she can live quietly, and she can be no different from others.

I lived in a daze until high school, thinking too much about the fresh life I had felt in the past. Facing another school art performance, she signed up and practiced again and again as before. However, I seem to find that no matter how I concentrate as before, my mind is full of many distractions.

She hopes to win, but she is worried about the result. She practiced hard, but her voice was full of self-doubt and fear. The more she expects to return to the original flow state, the more she restricts her various thoughts. When Tian Yue stood on the stage, she was concerned about the subtle changes and expressions of the audience, the stage and the people around her. The only thing she doesn't care about is herself. As a result, it is conceivable that the dance is not good and does not meet the requirements of the school. Tian Yue was very sad. What she is sad about is not the loss of the game, but the extreme frustration of not finding her true self, which has nothing to do with the size of the matter, and is a pain deeply felt in her heart.

The same thing happened paradoxically in the university. She tried again and again to find her initial experience and mood in similar scenes, and she also signed up for the cultural performance. She is too eager to live a luxurious life and wants to find her initial state of complete devotion. This time, she chose Indian dance. She arranged and rehearsed by herself day and night, full of expectations for herself, and she stood on the stage again.

Self-confidence came to the stage, the music began, bowing and tiptoeing ... Tian Yue's talent for dancing was obvious. Just when everyone was shocked by the visual feast brought by this dance, the suspenders of the carefully prepared dance costumes broke with a bang! Tian Yue had to hold the skirt by hand to prevent it from falling, and it ended up in such an embarrassing situation in full view. However, this delay forced the dance to be interrupted and Tian Yue was disqualified.

She returned to the dormitory at a loss, curled up in the corner, and her tears kept flowing ... In this way, she lay all night, and her inner self seemed to be experiencing repeated crushing, tearing and suffering. She was taught to be as kind and strong as a boy since she was a child, and she was so sad that she fell into a deep black hole for this little thing. Even if you like yourself, you can't understand.

After that, even if something great happened in Tian Yue, it could not compare with the same sadness this time. She tried to return to the noumenon state again and again, but she was frustrated again and again. Since then, Tian Yue has become more introverted, more afraid of failure, afraid to act, and timid.

Although she feels that her body is alive, she feels that her soul is dead.

Maybe everyone's life will have some profound traumatic experiences, which will make us suddenly stop and hesitate. Maybe it doesn't matter in the eyes of others, but only we know that those injuries and pains are the distress signals shouted by our inner self.

Tian Yue, a walking corpse, spent his middle school days and walked into the university campus.

On that day, Tian Yue walked on the tree-lined path of the university campus, and looked up with a touch of sunshine, which fell on her through the cracks in the leaves. At this moment, staring at this gift from nature, she can get it at her fingertips without extravagant demands. She experienced the ultimate peace and beauty without a trace of distractions, as if she had read the secret words of leaves and sunshine.

She closed her eyes and the once familiar feeling came back. It's easy. She believes that this must be an occasional grace from heaven and a glimpse of the instant truth. Although I waited for a long time, I finally came.

Walking on the way to school, suddenly a powerful voice came from her, "I want to live my true self!" " "Life must be more than just getting married, having children, working and studying. There must be something else for Tian Yue to feel and appreciate. The sound is very strong, just like a fearless energy and driving force.

As soon as this inner voice comes out, it seems that the inner strong desire has reached a critical point. Tian Yue went back to the dormitory and turned on her laptop. At this time, a video just appeared, which was the video of the founder of Zen Buddhism in Thailand practicing meditation and teaching. Look at his extremely peaceful and intelligent state, which seems to have transcended the three-dimensional space. Although separated from the screen, the respected man's smile shocked Tian Yue. The state she has been looking for has come alive! "This is what I am looking for, what I want!"

Since then, Tian Yue has forged an indissoluble bond with the dynamic Zen Buddhism in Thailand.

Therefore, during his four years in college, Tian Yue devoted almost all his body and mind to psychology, philosophy and Zen besides completing the task of studying. She eagerly went to the library to collect relevant books, buried herself in studying hard, and found various ways to contact self-cultivation through the internet to save money for lectures. She also knows very well that practicing her inner self is not the same as giving up her studies and leaving the world. She should constantly learn knowledge, precipitate herself and make herself stronger. Only love after a truly comprehensive and multidimensional understanding is what you really want.

Just as roommates are busy going to the movies to sing K-makeup beauty and enjoying the youthful days of college, Tian Yue seems to be a big heterogeneous group. Everyone can understand what she is exploring and her strong desire to pursue her inner world. It seems that everyone has the same cognition and expectation for people of all ages. What Tian Yue did was not what a college student "should" pursue, so it became.

However, only Tian Yue, who firmly believes that she should listen to this precious voice in her heart and insist on being herself.

20 1 1 Tian yue came to Shenzhen after graduating from university, and her first job was about real estate exhibition media.

Shenzhen, let Tian Yue deeply feel that this is really a magical city. Those "weird" pursuits that are not understood in universities, and the dream capital that is integrated with such diverse values, seem to be accepted, tolerated, respected and supported. Here, Tian Yue's pursuit of inner dreams has unlimited space for her precipitation and growth.

At that time, the boss was particularly open-minded, knowing Tian Yue's commendable persistence and supporting Tian Yue to practice and explore his inner self after work. From that moment on, Tian Yue began a journey of inner exploration in the true sense. She went to the temple for the first time to practice, meditate, meditate, meditate, devote herself wholeheartedly and listen to her inner voice. Born into the WTO, she knew that she could not become a monk and should practice in the world of mortals.

In the next few years, Tian Yue intermittently participated in nearly 20 meditations for more than 7 days. What impressed her most was that she was born as a human being and had to cultivate her inner consciousness. Only through self-awareness, can she resolve all inner pain patterns and be more compassionate to herself, others and the world. For a long time, she felt that she had "recognized the thief as her father and was serious about it" for too long. Thief refers to the inner distractions, patterns and habits of each of us, forgetting the true self and noumenon. Meditation again and again is to meet your true self again. What we have experienced since childhood will definitely lead to many emotions that are not really expressed. These unfinished events will become many unresolved personality faces. Inner meditation is to let light shine into the heart through the darkness, melt these past personality faces and become a real "real" person.

In 20 12, some people said that the end of the world was coming. Tian Yue gave herself a legitimate reason to complete her dream pilgrimage. If it is really the last day, she asks herself what she really wants to do. Tian Yue didn't hesitate. She quit her job, set out from Shenzhen, went to Tibet, Nepal, India, Sri Lanka, Thailand, Macao, and finally returned to Shenzhen.

Every pious face in Tibet, with a clean smile without a trace of dust and impurities, has deeply penetrated into Tian Yue's heart. Maybe this is the closest thing to the truth. She learned from pilgrims, knelt in the pure land of heaven and earth, threw away all the restrictions of the soul, approached the earth with her heart, spread out all her senses, and understood, felt and integrated this power from her faith.

Pushing the driver's innocent smiling face is an unconditional joy, which is really noble. Tian Yue was shocked to see the celestial burial ceremony. When people leave, the body is just a body made up of cells. Since we can't even attach ourselves to our bodies, we can let go of many external attachments.

I came to Sri Lanka and Thailand and experienced the ritual of Hinayana Buddhism. Flowers support people's pious thoughts and good wishes, and feel the comfortable balance and joy in life. India's disorderly polarization was deceived by a sudden car driver a second ago, and then a car wash master put down his work and offered to help Tian Yue and his partners return to the hotel. From hell to heaven. This is the real, diverse, rich and wonderful world.

? Self-cultivation is not only in your own world, but also in the world. Read more mountains and seas and live more life, and a person can be richer and stronger.

After returning home, Tian Yue went to a small temple in a small town in Wenzhou and closed for three months. She turned in her mobile phone, her face turned to the sky, and she was not allowed to talk. What she does every day is to pay attention to every inch of her body's perception, detect every thought that she flashes, and meditate.

This is a journey of deep dialogue with yourself. In three months' time, Tian Yue saw his many rising thoughts, emotions and self-evaluation systems, floated over, saw them, accepted them, and let them drift away slowly, completely with himself. Many undigested personality faces in the past have been melted, the unfinished events in the past have been completed, her heart has completely calmed down, and many inner inspirations and wisdom have also appeared.

Three months later, Tian Yue went through the customs, came to the taxi stand and got on the bus. It's like a lifetime ago, as if she came to another time and space. It's noisy and strange here, but at that moment, Tian Yue is clear, empty and quiet. The bustling crowd passed by, and everyone's face seemed to be full of thoughts and uneasiness. Any sign of trouble outside is enough to make a fragile mind fragile.

"I want to bring this feeling of living my inner self to more people, so that more people can live the truth of life and show their inner wisdom." At this moment, Tian Yue made a beautiful wish and dream.

Then, Tian Yue mainly focused on meditation, participated in a lot of dance, psychology, philosophy and Buddhism courses, and spent more time exploring himself every day. This is a very magical process. The inner world is like a cave with countless treasures. Stick to it, and you will find all kinds of treasures.

The dream of "living the true self" made Tian Yue explore and pursue all the way. From 2007 to 17, Tian Yue left for ten years.

When you continue to do every bit well, you will attract more and more colleagues. In the past, Tian Yue thought that only he was interested in inner exploration, but later he found that everyone would actually embark on this road, melt the pain and live a comfortable life.

Joining the dreamer, Tian Yue thought it was another gift from God. This dream already exists in Tian Yue's mind. It just needs a push. In The doer, I met Brother Xiong, Uncle Bao, Brother Xiang and many excellent friends. They supported and encouraged each other, and accepted all kinds of dreams like a big container, including inner pursuits like this.

Baodi supported Tian Yue's attempt to open the first dance salon, and shared his many years' precipitation with more people. Unexpectedly, during the activity, everyone showed a state that greatly exceeded expectations. Everyone is in the same frequency, moved, shed tears, and cleaned up, so that all emotions can be truly revealed, healed, intoxicated in the dance, and deeply experience loving your body and mind. With sharing again and again, Tian Yue attracted more and more people to her side. She formed a small dance-conscious community, where everyone danced together and shared their feelings. It has helped more and more people to fall in love with dance and gain spiritual growth.

Tian Yue later went to a professional Zen dance organization to teach and continue to practice. Later, Tian Yue left the organization and became a professional soul dance teacher. He shared with major enterprises, organizations and friends and conducted energy dance workshops with different themes. He really turned his obsessive hobby into a profession, ran his own club and led a group of people on the road of inner practice of soul dance.

Tian Yue's sharing is always full of quiet power. She prefers to use the name "sharer" rather than "teacher". All beings are equal. She doesn't want to be above others, but hopes to serve everyone more humbly and spread a beautiful idea to more people. And more and more busy and anxious office workers ride the crowded subway, pass through the crowded crowd, take off their high-heeled shoes and come to Tian Yue's side, bow their heads, swing their bodies along their limbs and dance with their hearts ... A moment of silence and a moment of getting along with themselves gain valuable strength, which is enough to support themselves on the same road to work, smiling and moving forward with joy.

Live your true self, release your talents and happiness, and your sense of value will be magnified a hundred times. At the end of the interview, Tian Yue said to me, "I still have two sincere dreams, one is to live my true self, and the other is to be a dancer. I am grateful to God for giving her the resources and blessings she needs to help me realize my dream. Having a thrilling dream is a gift from heaven, and everyone deserves to find out. "

When she said this, she was still so serene and happy. In the past, I saw the present situation of Tian Yue, but I didn't know her story. After the interview, I didn't seem to hear any strange and tortuous stories. However, this does not prevent Tian Yue from living a full life. The inner world is no less wonderful and beautiful than the outer world, which is worth savoring and exploring.

Today, Tian Yue seems to rediscover the true state she has been looking for through the pain of inner growth, but exploring the inner road is a never-ending road. You never know whether there will be flowers or thorns ahead. She dances, sings, shares and spreads every day, affecting more and more people.

The unknown treasure inside, go in a little, go in a little, she is willing to pursue it all her life.

Tian Yue said to me-"Thank you xy for interviewing life and essence, listening to the gentle and inclusive experience of each daf, and deeply wishing everyone a brilliant life and true heart."